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25/6----Tots and feelings

2006-02-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

25/6 1.20am

Saturday now already. jus 3hours plus from my bookout day. and 8hours ago i was preparing for my route march in full battle order. I'm kinda writing this blog but its kinda dead again. Aint got any mood to revive it. JUs tat i got some tots and feelings tat i decided not to bottle them up. Although no one is goin to read this fuck-uped thing but nvm bah.. i jus write some shit tat probably no one will write thru...

Today is my bookout day. BUt at every bookout i will have the same damn feeling. It jus suck u see. I duno why but i jus cant be happy whenever i book out. Really. Last fri was book out too. It was after a 7 days long shack field camp. Tat last week was the most happy booking out i would say. Most happy liao. I went watch movie with my frd. First time though.. BUt it did bring up my spirit a little. went to watch the 'i not stupid too'. Quite a gd show i would say. Fel cried though. Then after the show went to eat lunch. Feeling super guilty lor.. Really super guilty about the lunch.

Anyway tat isnt the tot and my feeling in my brain. Somehow, i do feel happy for yoke and her bf now. Seeing them happy tgt and able to talk to her as frd now.
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Recently this stupid feeling is coming back to mi. I duno how to put it thru. Haiz. it kinds of saddens mi allot. Called yoke the nite before. I was so overjoyed after a successful act out as a narrator of my act. My team of actors didnt fail mi and neither did i fail them, the co-ordination was done really well and my effort wasnt wasted. I feel so super happy when all the sir were happy with the performance and also they were very please wif the act. I called a few pp.. So much of those i wanted to share tat happiness with.. Called and called, but the onli person who picked up my call and shared tat happiness wif mi was yy.. kinda felt happy tat there was at least one person who picked up my phone call. Well, she kinda notice wat was happening around mi in one way or another..Haiz..Like her. I also duno how to explain it...Feel stupid...Haiz.. Nvm.. i'm at a lost of wat to say bah.. It sucks..

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This week a's coming out. But the worrying thing to mi isnt about the results at all...Hai.. how how... Teach mi how.....
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I'm probably the most useless people and the last of the last person tat anyone would put in their mind. Yup..
Probably i might end up becoming like yong meng---Hate men...
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Sometimes at a point when one very much wana make the first move to resolve a crisis but he/she is often not given tat opportunity and a crisis becomes a disaster tat can nv be resolve..
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25/2-1.47am

Second bookout from army HIGH FEVER

2006-01-19T19:20:00.000+08:00

Long time since i blogged my bro said to mi. QUite some time i think..the last post was so long ago.

booked in on the 7 of jan i think. cant really rmb. Didnt feel quite happy booking in at all.. Really.. 1 few days sucked cos i counldnt really slp. But after 2-3 nites i adapted to the place.Made many frds.. which include my buddy chang wen. My gd joke mate yong meng, alloysus section ic. pohseng(big sized cute guy jioing girl)Yong quan with nice 6pacs and vjc swimming chong wei.and leonard nicholas and our SM gordon. I booked out 2days shortly after the first book in. tat 1 day of public holiday seem so super short. Really short. HAven enjoyed the outside world enough. Then book in le.. Shortly after book in. I recieve my rifle. Not very nice thing i shld say.. LIke toy like tat.. Heavy bah.. COnsider walking 24k wif it. Then i recieved my first set of army uniform and the first set of meals.. Kinda like those meals..

Life in the army is like life in vs. Full of ups and downs and bonds ever stronger.Jus tat we have to stay there for 5 days and not go home. THink about it.. It isnt really tat bad.Got provide sufficient-- Too much-- food..tat we will confirm get damn full after each meal. have nite snack and stuff..and got allowance some more..

HOwever one thing tat i didnt really enjoy is the rapid spread of the diseases.. Really soo super fast. 12 days into camp.. My section( 12 ) of us.. ALready there is 6 who are sick. Really.. Fever and stuff.. well.. i'm the 6th one. THen i booked out on status. Means something like Mc..not bad la.. manage to tahan my fever for so long. Yeah. from 5.30 amd to 1.00pm. then i report sick..I hit a record highest temp of 39degrees.. Haha.. Abit crazy.. Then i went to see medic.. Feelin really horrible and sick.. Really sick.. Damn...

Fever suck.. The medical centre jus make it worse. Ha.. never will i get sick again. Never.. I goin to book in tml friday at 9.30 then book out at sat again at noon or so.. quite lame rite.WEll.. its kinda alrite for mi bah.. Maybe coming home or not doesnt really matter to mi.. life inside is jus as tough as life outside..

wow i'm kinda really sick now.. Really i mean.. Later goin to rest le.. maybe go talk on the phone too.. lol.. but hor.. now my timing has been switched to 2230hr to .0530 slpin time... lol .. wat am i goin to do when i wake at like 5am tml.. tat would be so stupid though..

0.o.. my tag box duno wat happen.. got deleted so i decided to put up a new one.. but i kinda doubt there would be anything posted.. Yeah..Now in army.. i kinda miss those times in tpjc..well well.. i prefer to study though.. But the tough part is onli the 3 months.. later then song already..

today when i booked out. i met my fs. tat fitnes instructor.. tough trainig but it is good for us. when i boarded the bus.. i saw this girl tat looked really like u..smiled and frown to myself..but i didnt noe wat tat meant to myself..

1 day a soldier.. always a soldier...

ha.. tml booking in at 9.30pm.. shld i popby novena sq to hit on tat crazy girl?haha..can consider

Occasionally i would still miss those times where we confind to each other where we joked almost everyday.

Back from army

2006-01-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. back from army, 2 days in army though. NOthing much to say about army. jus tat army probably sucks. Sian.. Really nothing to do. Haven got much physical training and i kept eating and eating.Well i hope tat the training will start soon. Getting my rifle on the 14 jan lor.. Tat's wat they say la.. Haiz.. Wats so fun about getting it anyway.. Jus a rifle. Something tat jus make my life more difficult. Haiz..Anyway.. Muz try to keep a positive attitude towards this. Haiz. Hope to be able to become the top 10% bah. Then can become officer.. Hope.. Jus a hope..

Haiz.. Stupid blog.. Duno why i am blogging again..No ones read this damn blog anyways..Ah.. fark.. jus blog...

There is this 1 person tat i miss the most.. Mai, i would say..Wondering wat is happening to her.. Haiz.. Tat Best frd....

Bookin out on a hari raya haji.. Simply isnt tat amazing anyway.. Sucks bah.. Kinda bo liao...

Will i get a one word reply?

Last ENTRY

2005-12-17T11:51:00.000+08:00

I was scanning thru a few blogs then i stumbled upon my own blog..Scan thru my blog and tot it migh jus be meaningless to keep it here cos i totally lost any motivation to blog. So this shall be my last entry. A dead blog will end up being a dead blog from a forgotten soul..
Signout...
Blog to be removed in 2days..

So many things happen in Such little Time

2005-12-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

Quite allot happen recently bah.. So many things in such little time..Hai.. Its holidays for mi.. I'm embedded by this sadness.. I wonder i Wonder..I'm goin army already... Somehow somehow..

It seems like everytime i'm overwhelmed by sadness i would blog.. Haiz.. some how i'm sad.. Really sad.. but How?

I'm probably goin cycling later again bah.. Somehow cycling isnt workin already..Now, a further step in... Drinking.. Hopin it would work somehow...

Back Home....Exhuasted and ...

2005-11-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

Jus reached home lor.. Its like 12.44 now.. Exhuasted and .... A little hurt... My thigh hurts.. Knee giving mi problems everytime i cycle.. Stupid.. Crunky leg.. Now totally exhuasted but suddenly wanna blog again.. HAha..

Lets see.. TOday... Rot my day at home doin harmful stuff...Was tryin to rid myself of the withdrawal symptoms.. Then my dad kept nagging at mi and i got totally pissed off.. But i didnt do anything nor did i care.. Jus hack..

At nite.. Decided to go out wif gk.. Cos of my withdrawal sia...So.. i went cycling... 1 way to dissolve tat withdrawal effect is to Spend money.. Haha.. But i didnt manage to find the rite thing to spend on.. HAha.. Went ahead to cycle.. Met up wif gk then went to sitex.. Cos i told him i needed to buy something if it didnt hit 500-700.... But i didnt manage to find it u see...SO nvm.. HAiz...

TAlkin about cycling.. Sucks man.. Crappy sia.. At huiyun house there.. i didnt see the red light and cycle pass... Then one motorcycle jus came straight into my face.. Wth... I like not shocked.. Bloody man.. ALmost almost... THe horn sucks.. SO loud...Then...duno why the drivers muz drive so close to the double yellow line.. At ecp.. Up hill.. The stupid plants.. wif thorns sia.. Violent.. Poked mi and tore my shirt sia.. WTH!! When i tot everything would go off smoothly.... I tripped over a rock..(big stone) on the floor at the same place as 2 days ago..Bloody hell.. Unlucky...

I think i shldnt be cyclin these few days anymore.. Feelin kinda exhuasted.. Hurts.. Legs giving way.. Back hurts..6 blisters on hand..Tired muscles..arghhhhhh... tired!!HAiz.. Who will go out wif mi.. I wanna go out...BOred at home.. No life sia...Sunday le...Goin to rot at home again... Its bore... Such a bore. Waiting for monday to come bah...

Where is my girl??Where are u??

Finally I'm blogging again!!

2005-11-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

Wa.. Its been a long time since i Blog.. Mai asked mi to blog already! Haha!!But its a dead blog already! How to revive it.. Dead twice already...

Haiz.. wat to say? A lvl sucks u see... SUcky.. SO hard.. duno how to deal wif my life now.. And duno how it would be after taking my results.. Haiz...

I'm left wif 1month plus onli.. Kinda sucky.. 1Month onli.. ENough?? Haiz!!Army sucky enough!

WEll.. now i'm bored stiff.. Nothing left to be done to my life.. Kinda bored after my a's feeling relief but empty.. Nothing to do leh.. How? How? Haiz..

Today went out wif Huiyi, Went to disturb Kahseng.. Played bball wif boon in the morning and also went swimming and tanning at 12 noon.. Crazy.. Hoped i didnt get burnt.. With lots of exercise today i found tat i lost my stamina.. Cycle abit onli then my grion pain and my lef ache like mad.. Haiz..Pain..Now still aching.. Later mai noe le i die!

I'm bored.. nothing to do..Bored! Haha..Duno wat to do wif my life... Haha.. Wat shld i do tml.. Muz start planning...

Today some1 was unreachable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha!!! :(

Re-Visit

2005-10-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

Long time nv blog le.. Kinda lazy to blog la.. Haiz.. Cos sometimes this word blog seems to bring mi fond memories.. But after awhile make mi feel sad ya....Yeah.. Somehow i feel sad. Wa.. Actually i got lots of things to say de.. Somehow i forgot wat to say. Haha.. Then i shall go step by step..

First up about today. Hea.. Eh.. Today woke up late bah... Then i didnt go sch for the chem paper 3.. Hee.. Kinda not prepared for it leh.. Hai..Sian.. I muz start studyin harder for my chem and fmaths then i can have more time for physics and study my physics in peace.. Yar..Haiz.. Goin for 3subs confirm then i study my physics.. BUt it doesnt seem so possible now. And its a worry... Cos i'm spending too much time in games man.. And tat is bad.. Reall Bad....

Then in the afternoon.. I went to sch to find Mai.. Haha.. Then on the way..Yb and mans and ks called mi for lunch tgt.. Haha.. So i went to find them first.. But tat mans still doin his chem lor.. DO for 3hours liao.. Then i went to find mai.. yar.. Then she told mi she goin off le.. GOin home cos she got no mood to study.. HAha.. Then i duno why i came sch for.. ACtually tot she staying sch to study so study wif her.. AHha..But nvm... I could go out wif jax and the rest for awhile.. Hee.. Jus awhile..

Met them.. THen we went to eat at tmart.. Haha.. The foodcourt there.. HEe....I didnt feel like eating then i went to buy some desert to eat.. Hee...Then the rest eat their lunch..We chat over the lunch.. Talk about everything in the world jus like wat we used to be.. Hee.. This bunch of my frds are one of the best pp in tpjc.. Yeah..

Then after lunch.. We 5guys did the cutest things in the whole world..We went to play the playground at the tmart there.. Haha.. Cute eh.. ANd we played so fun sia.. So so sosososo Fun...We played like 2hours or so bah. HEe.. Pretty long..We talked and played for a long long time. Hee.. Really long long time.. Haha.. Normal la.. We did all the stupid things.. Heee...That's us.. That's 04s24.. "p

THen after playing... When we are about to leave... I was so horrified to find my ring missing.. Damn lor.. I was so depress and sad la.. Very very sad and i was very nervous.. DUno wat for...
KS said.." fated la.. Even the god ask u not to wear the ring le.."
Jax Said.."Wa.. How to find" if i not wrong..
Haiz.. It isnt jus a ring to mi bah.. To mi bah...I jus felt really really sad without it..Ok.. Wat am i typing.. But jus now really felt lost sia.. haiz..Really quite scared jus now.. Digged my bag a few times also cannot find.. HAiz...Then i really really scared.. Ah boon help mi find like crazy also..
I really tot tat i was fated to lose tat ring.. HAiz.. Jus a ring ba le.. Jitao.... Am i making a big fuss?? Haiz.. I'm stupid like always...Nvm. Forget it...
Then after finding for quite a while.. I finally found tat ring.. Jus on the floor.. In the middle of the whole playground..Finally.. Jitao.. tat time i really breathe a sigh of relief.. yar...

Then i went home liao.... Shish.... Ok.. time to study le...."p....Muz concentrate.. I try..

Again 1 more

2005-10-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

I duno why. i jus feel like bloggin again.. Haiz.. Its kinda stupid feeling actually..Well.. i shld say.. God damN it.. I went to read something tat i shld not be reading.. Haiz.. Kinda stupid actually.. Damn mi.. Sometimes.. Its jus out of curiosity.. YAr.. But it hurts a little..

Well those are crap...
HAiz.. wat shld i say? Currently i duno if i'm really happy.. I feel tat i am.. But sometimes i realy have relapse lor.. JItao.. HAiz.. Duno why eh.. ITs kinda stupid.. Stupid.. Shld i study now?? I'm pretty sure i cant get to slp any time soon lor.. But i'm also dead sure tat nothing can get into my head...I think i shld blog of something. BUt later pp complain i blog too much YAr..

Probably mai has seen thru mi bah.. Look there... Somehow she still feels tat i'm nt back to myself.. Something is still wrong somewhere.. I noe it too.. I'm probably still not back to normal yet.. Yar.. Jus not quite yet.. But i'm more into my studies now.. Yes...Probably more than my usual but surely not more than wat i did in VS. Yar..I really wish to go back there... All the studying and laughter with my VS gang.. Now all separated to an international extent.. Kinda sad.. Meet up like once a yr onli.. I miss tat period..As for now..I'm pretty much alone here.. WEll other than mai, jax,huiyi, and some others.. yar.. Its kinda sad to say.. I onli manage to make a few really really gd frds in this 2 yrs.. Instead.. I mean some enemies who really really hate mi.. Haiz.. Let fate decide bah..

Today i recieve a call from someone.. HAiz.. Its relationship problems again.. Somehow or rather.. COuples dosent seem as happy as they seem.. Well i understand yar...Last nite i called my other frd.. Also having similar problem..Hai.. Why all like tat... Haiz...Feel sad.. I duno why.. Whether is it feelin sad for myself or feelin sad for them.. Or maybe both.. Cos both also my frds..

Suddenly i have tat feelin of goin into army asap.. Yar.. But i noe.. Mai and huiyi would kill mi.. I really have tat tot.. Haiz.. Its kinda sad..Nowadays. i smile and laugh.. Everyday, take things very lightly and life seems beta.. But sometimes when i look back and think about certain things, i do feel sad.. YAr..I duno why.. Like now.. suddenly overwhelmed wif sadness.. Loneliness...Wa.. jitao.. like huijoo like tat.. always so happy happy and happy go lucky.. No matter how sad she is.. ALso will be as crazy de.. Crazy girl...but when she sad then she jiu lonely lonely sad at one corner.. Its funny how pp deal wif sadness dont u feel...i see many ways.. Mine's weirder.. Come to think of it.. HAha.. Ok.. i think i shld end here le.. Its late.. I think i goin to play games.. HEe..

Reviving it!!

2005-10-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Somehow or rather.. my blog has become stagnant.. Yar.. Long time nv blog liao.. Hai.. so busy with my studies and games. Hee.. Yar... Really busy.. Hee.. After having all the f's from the prelims, Its time to start studying. The prelims hit mi really really hard loR.. Haiz.. ITs time to start all over again.. Mug for these few weeks then later can go army in peace le.. IF not go army come out cannot go anywhere is worse.. Yar.. I shld try my best.. HEe..Starting to do the prelims papers le.. Hee... But hor.. ALlot i duno how to do leh.> Esp the fmaths.. I so rusty le.. So long nv touch my maths.. Jitao.. Now go try then take allot of time lor.. I go do 1 fmths qn.,. Take 1 hour lor.. WAt kind of FH standard is tat.. Jitao.. ANd tat had to be my fav complex number topic lor.> Sian.> Sian.. HAiz.. Really no time le.. So long liao.> HAiyo.. Its like so little time left. Yar.. Then i now chiong my maths like mad.. Then neglect my other subs.. But my life is maths.. Yar... Maths and maths..

Yeah... Talk about something tat happen recently bah.. Yar.. Yeah..Ystd.. I went cycling wif Huiyi and Guan kai.> hee.. 2 of my gd frds.. HEe..We met up at ecp at 9pm sharp.. But i was late for 15mins.. BUt i tried my best to reach there on time le.. I chiong on my bike al the way down from my house.. 1/2 hour nia.. Hee.. Then huiyi missed the busstop.. Wahaha..End up i still early.. MEt her atVs there.. Saw some vs guys still studying.. Wahaha.. Shuang lor.. I was like tat in the past de.,. Study and study and play.. More time to study than play lor.. HEe..NOw like diff le.,. MOre play then study.> Tat is bad.. Ok.. divert back.. then i cycle her to the lagoon there to meet gk.. GK was late too.. Wahaha.. ENd up i earliest nia. HAha..Song.. Then i cycle one big round around the big pond or wateva u call tat.. HEe..
Tat nite we ate allot.. HAha.. ALlot allot. Eg. we ate eh..Satay... eh..Still got hao jian, rojak..(the auntie still recognise mi..) stil have wanton mee.. (onli huiyi ate) then still have some others.. i forgot le.. HEe.. We eat till very fulll. Hoho.. THen after tat.. WE chatted for awhile.. Huiyi complain to gk tat i didnt study and gk also advice mi to study. I muz study le.. Yar.. Study study.> THEn after tat we send huiyi home le.. Go buy eunos. I cycle her home.. Wahaha.. Really tiring but its ok.. HEe..fun leh.. Abit dangerous i shld say. By the time i reached her house.. I was exhuasted.. THen we still cycle to 85 market to eat.. Wif gk nia.. ON the way i went to disturb Zelin and also went to disturb kahseng.. Hee..Wa.. they all so late le still awake lor. HEe..

Then i end up goin home at about 2.30 liddat..HEe.. I chiong my way home. Wa.. when i reach home.,. I found tat i strained my grion.. And also strain my thigh muscle. HAiz.. REally stretched and tired my muscle.. BUt it was good training.. LOng time nv train le. hee.. Then i reached home.. MAple awhile then slp le..I was expectin the next day i wont be able to walk lor..

Hee. I woke up at 12.07pm with a call from jax.. JItao lor.. I suppose to met them at 12 lor..I was late.. I was really tired tat's why i woke up so late.. JItao. Then i changed and chiong to tm.. Decied to cycle. THen felt a pain in my hip bone there.. JItao.. Pain leh.. THen my grion also pain.. Hee.. Jitao.. But i still cycle.. COs short distance nia.. ANd i was late lor.. By hook or by crook my get there in the shortest time.> HEE.. Yeah..

THen when i reached./As usual.. Ks came late.. then boon mi and jax and mans.. went to eat hans. HEe.. Eat hans le.. PLayed abit of lan.> JUs tat few hours.. THen we ate dinner and go home.. HEe.. I talk more other time.. Now i go watch tv le. Cya.!!!

Life after prelims

2005-09-27T01:39:00.000+08:00

Wow wow.. long time nv blog le..come to think of it.. Its about like more than 2 weeks le.. Haha..Well.. Isnt tat i'm lazy to blog.. But i'm jus pretty busy wif stuf.. so i neglected my blog. Yar.. Feel kinda bad tat i didnt blog all these while.. Well many thing happened.. Haha.. Gd things i shld say. Wel..quite a few..

For mi, my life has changed. I'm switching back to more studies, WHich is gd.. Yar.. I'm now more focus on my studies. yar.. Thanks to joa bah. She sort of pulled my back to my studies lor. Yar..Anyway, tat's partyly why i started to study. THe other reasons were my parents.. Had a violent quarrel with them then also my prelims results. Kinda bad u see.. Didnt really do well at all.. Fail fail and fail. THe pain shot right thru my heart. Yar..So i felt tat real pain. SO i pushed myself to study le. Games and studies are balanced out. I'm startin to do my maths more le.. ANd revising on my chem every 2 days yar.. HOpe there is enough time to catch up my studies. i still got my phy and fmaths to study. yar.. no time to waste u see.. Onli left bout 40days. Yar...Yeah.. buck up.. I must pia le.. Jus a few more days and it wil be over.. Short short time nia.. haha...

Still got wat to say.. Haha.. Oh yes.. Tat joa used my phone to take so many pics of herself.. LAter my phone spoil.. Haha.. JUs kidding..Yesh... For u and huiyi.. DUn so stress.. If u duno anything u can always come and find mi. I can try to help u . I might not noe how to do but i will try to help u guys.. Esp for joa.. DUn so stress.. U noe urself tat u cant work under stress.. Yar.. SO jus go by the pace tat u are in now.. Everything will be fine. As for huiyi.. I duno much about u.. Ur studies. Yar.. I try to help u as much as i can ok?? Dun so stress so.. Its not too late to start revising now lor.. YAr.. ok? Jax and i all can help de..

Then last nite eh.. Sunday, i fell sick. Bad flu. Mai also fell sick. Hai.. WE both sick. MAny pp fell sick after the prelims. Like some aft prelims virus lor.. I went out to study with joa. THen my nose dripped water like duno wat.. SO malu.. Used all the tissue tat she brought.. Hai... Then i went walking around also like tat.. THen my nose like tat she think i bad mood. But is i sick.. THen she pulled mi to buy panadol. Eat panadol le. I feel so much beta..Then when i reached home, my parents dun wanna let mi rest and draged mi downstairs to eat.. THen my mum gimme tat black face cos she bu shuang wif mi.. HAiz.. Crazy.. THen the whole dinnner was sucks.. Yar.. SUcks.. I jus ate a little then went home le..Then jus when i reached home for awhile, huiyi appeared in front of my door step.. I was shocked. SHe knew about my illness and she flew here lor.. I was terribly shocked and touched. SHe bought the porridge for mi to eat.. Damn nice la.. Shiok.. REally nice sia..I love it.. It would have tasted beta if i wasnt having flu bah.. Yar.. Thanks huiyi,. Thanks leh.. Really appreciated it.. Sorry i couldnt send u home u had to see the mess tat my parents were in.. Crazy rite.. Yup.. Next time i shall treat u eat.. Haha.. At least now u make frds with joa.. I intro u a frd leh. hHaha...."p
Oh yes huiyi.. Trust mi.. THe past is the past..Now my main focus is studies and getting into army.. Eh.. sorry mai.. I muz go ns de..But in ns can stil msg u everynite de.. MY cousin does tat to mi.. HAha.. Ur my best frd since i j1...DO ur best in ur studies.. U can make it de.. Be strong.. U still have mi!!! haha.."p ok.. Very late le.. I falling aslp le.. BLog another time..
Cya~!Sign out 1.39 am.....

Happy

2005-09-17T14:36:00.000+08:00

Ohh.. Ystd very happy actually Haha.. Spend quite a gd day.. ITs a gd way to relax and smile.. Really smile.. Haha.. But ironically is shopping. haha.. Ystd went shopping wif joa.. Wanted to buy myself a bag and shirt and computer parts.. But hor.. End up i didnt buy... All joa buy de.. Haha.. So funny.. She go to almost every shop she see to try out skirts, shirt and wat not.. Haha..Suddenly she start wearin skirts.. Haha.. Pretty funny.. LAst time she also dun wear de.. Hoho. Oh yar.I saw one bag tat really caught my eyes.. BUt eh.. I take sling bag damn weird can.. HAha.. So i didnt buy.. Then also got a shirt tat i like.. BUt ex leh. So nv buy.. Hoho.. Ystd really destress.. KS they all also.. HAha.. Came over my house to play.. And destress.. Haha.. PLay and play till crazy.. Hoho..
BTw...Today goin to bugis again... Later buying computer parts..Hope by the time i reach there not at nite le.. HEe..YEah.. BUgis seems like a nice place to shop.. BUt cannot shop too many times.. WIll run out of things to see de.. HEe.. But ystd at bugis really see quite a few thins.. Hee.. Walk til my leg very suan when i reach home.. BUt its fun.. Yeah.. NV sian. Hee.. Wat a miracle.. Hoho..."p Hao le.. I waiting for jax.. Getting ready to go le.. Come back then i blog again..WAhahahahhahaha.. HAppy happy.. ITs nice to be happy.....

Prelims sucks

2005-09-15T10:12:00.000+08:00

Wa.. prelims ah.. Trouble le..I nv felt i did so badly before.. IN fact i goin to do very badly.. TOday is the first day tat i come late for exam in my life.. It had to be chem paper 2.. Jia lat.. I dun think i goin to get any a or b lor. More like allot of f and e.. JItao.. Scared..Scared.. Time to wake up le sia.. Time to wake UP!!! This time it hit mi pretty hard on my head.. ITs time to study.. Start le.. No more relax and less games.. Slp early too.. ARgh.. Gogogog.. Time to study.. Yeah... Mug mug mug.. ANd become nerd.. Then i can go ns le.. Wa.. Go ns alone.. Yeah!!! OUta my house.. Into a new world!!! Yeah.. Tml physics.. ITs time to study.> STudy.. After prelims, its time to redo all the papers and revise and reivse...Good luck to mi and myself..Work hard !!

Ohhh... Dumb

2005-09-12T17:10:00.000+08:00

Wa.. today damn dumb.. Super liao.. Today i did a qn tat no one in my class did.. Wa.. First time in my life sia.. Damn sad.. JItao..Did qn 11.. Did anyone do tat qn.. SUcks man.. Qn 11 = die.. Hooo.. So hard yet i tried.. I sure kena scolding by my tch de.. Die die.. Hai.. BUt its over le.. Cannot board over it.. But its kinda funny leh.. Actually i suppose to do qn 3. Then i write out all the points le.. But i turned and started on qn 11..JItao jitao.. Crazy..

Then compre i do till almost fall aslp.. Damn sia.. DO till got tears.. Hee.. The passage about prejudice and discrimination.. I do the rephrase till i fall aslp.. It is also the first time i put in so much effort to do my aq.. Hope can get 3 marks.. 3 marks enough liao..Woohoo...But really miserable sia.. THe compre abit boring.. But which compre not boring..Haha..

Then after tat was chem.. Woohoo.. Chem leh.. I tot i wil very jia lat.. All duno duno duno.. BUt hey hey.. i managed to do some of it. Duno whether can pass or not.. Hee.. BUt i muz study hard.. I swear tat i'm goin to redo the paper after my prelims. ANd after prelims.. Muz mug mug.. Woohoo!!! Wish mi luck!! Luck.. Well.. i feel good knowin how to do some of them.. Its an achievement i feel So from now ons, i muz mug and muz and wei wo de qian tui da suan.. Hee.. Gogogogogo!!!

Today keep laughin.. Happy happy.. Keeping the smile.. Tat's all i've got.. Smile..!!Enjoy being happy today.. Shish.. Oh yar.. CAn anyone tell mi wats wrong wif my eyes??? Got anything wrong meh??? Hohoho!!

Tml phy and maths le.. Time to study.. Song!! Study.. But phy eerrrrr.. Nvm.. jus study abit.."p.. Ohhh... Tagtag tag!! Rmb hor..

Jus now forgot to blog.. JItao.. Today damn suai too.. Damn unlucky.. Jus now during gp.. I did the paper then i fell aslp.. Wa.. then i sprain my back... My back again..Then now very very pain.. This part is diff from the other times.. Pain sia.. The whole of my right back.. So pain pain.. JItao.. NV slp during exam again.. Pray hard it wil be ok soon.. "p

Study hard

2005-09-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

Eh. Stupid leh. The title always so hard to think of a gd one. SO everytime i put a stupid title. Yar..
2days to my chem prelim liao.. its weird cos i'm not stressed about it at all.. NOt tat i'm totally prepared for it.. But i'm not prepared for it at all. Jitao.. Something is terribly wrong.. Wa piang.. Die sia.. Today i haven study.. Keep telling myself go study le.. Then went to my room sat down, flipped thru the pages for like 5 mins then i come out to the living room le. Wat crap. But i promised myself tat i must read thru all my notes by today. 2 reasons: 1 is tat tml i goin out to teach pp chem, 2 is my prelim coming liao lor.. Hope i have enough time. BUt the monday paper is chem paper 3 lor.. 3 hours.. Then i abit like no facts in my head so i abit worried. Yar.. Worries... Grrrr.. How ah.. Nvm try my best.. Well.. Study study study... Tml goin out to study le... sure can do something constructive.. Cos really no time le muz chiong.. CHIONG!! tonite i goin to chiong.. I sort of abit in the mood le.. hee... Got abit worried about myself.I think tat is something goood.. Hoho.. Study again..!! yeah.> Constantly reminding myself to study.>Yeah..
Btw, tml i goin to bugis there to study.> YEah.. shuang.. Goin to the national lib to study. Wow.. 7 storeys high lor.. ALso duno whether can study there not.. JItao...Beta can study lor..If not jia lat.. Then muz change place to study. HAha.. Sian leh..

Wa.. I put up the pics no one comment de.. nice not.. Nice mah? HEe.. COmment Comment leh...Woohoo!! For the past 2 days i was pretty in the mood.. ALthough the whole body aching. In the mood means not sad.. Haha. Shiok.. Everything seems peaceful to mi.> Seems calm and i like it this way.. Yeah!.. Calm in my heart is the best.. Finally i getting down to study.. Study study study..Yeah...

Shit man.. long time nv cook le.. Haha.. Jitao.. i miss cooking.. really miss cookin lor... But i scare to cook too.. cos pp say my food not nice.. hoho.. Yeah.. But i like to cook.. Yeah.. SHld start to cook again.. Maybe tml or something.. haha.. Yeah.. My tang yuan, my spag and egg and etc.. Woohoo.. Miss those food. Haha..Eat them will feel high.. Haha.."p

Hao le. I go play game le.. Then later study.. Ok.. awhile.. jus awhile of games.. Hee...Argh.. Monday got 3papers!!!!

I realise tat put pic on my blog can make it look nicer.. Haha.... SOme pic i took when i was in korea

Lonely is probably fine..

2005-09-09T13:16:00.000+08:00

Ystd, went to sch bah.. Went to find Mai and pass huiyi her digi cam. Yar.. STudied a little.. Really a little.. Then went to stran my muscles. Yar.. Play bball.. Train myself.. Train my jumping till whole body ache and as well to get tried so i might be able to fall aslp tat nite.. Got scolded for slping at 4plus 5 everyday..CAnt help it mah..Duno why also.. Then mai got really angry.. I will slp early.. Monday is an early paper .. Morning one. Gp.. Sure fail de.. So yar.. Shiok liao lor.. Anyway.. In sch ystd, there was a few unique incident. 1 is the guy in the art room.. He on the radio very loud.. He was studying.. Then he started singing.. JItao.. not softly.. But really really very very loudly.. Chao loudly.. Wa piang then one indian worker working there was looking into the art room.. he tot someone got possessed.. Haiz.. Crazy fellow..Then before tat, i walked pass a class still having lesson late in the afternoon.. Poor students.. Have lessons at such a time.. But obviously they not listening to the teacher.. Haha.. Cos the tch was screaming... LISTEN!! LISTEN... Wat i teach is important!!!The whole of d block can hear lor.. HAha.. ok bah.. Tat was jus a little something i saw on my way to the bball court to play bball again.> YAr..
Then i went home.. PLayed com again.> NNothing to do sia.. Actually shld start studying.. But rot till like very very long.. Then when i finish decomposing, my dad came home wif dinner which i have no mood to eat actually. But muz eat cos the whole day i nv eat.. Now, i onli eat at nite.. Dinner nia cos like veyr sian.. I see food also turn off sia.. HAha.. yar..

Then at nite.. YY told mi to see her blog.. yar.. read it thru.. Yes i do agree tat everything makes full sense.. Sometimes, words are easier said than done. Well.. My family problems are already too terrible. Onli sometimes i think of it and feel really sad.. Then About
"True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything that comes along their way.

Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be.

Happiness doesn't depend on what u have but what u satisfy & contented with. Try looking at the simple side of life, don't make life around you so complicated. its how you make others happy rather than how you want others to make you happy. "

YEap. Agree agree.. WHere did u get it..
I got this "在爱情里伤得最重的，往往是最痴心的人；或许我们一辈子都不会了解，为什么勇敢地去爱了，最后只有眼泪会同情自己。"duno anyone can read not.. But its nice.. Its from the 4th paragraph of http://www.boxup.cc/gb/music/album/2004/11/album4971.htm here..

Today i promised myself to study and study.. Muz le. Jitao.. Ystd got scolded for being a bad discouragement.. Haiz.. Dui bu qi k.. I will gif u the positive motivation the next time.. Haha.. Dun so pis. Hee..

Got an sms like this last nite: "Shall name u tiggger from now. Wan the old tigger back. Dun wan tat serious tigger who gets pissed off easily.."

This morning i woke up. Looked around. ANd had a tot tat run thru my mind.
"My life have robbed mi of my smile and the Mi tat i used to be.. Its time to change everything back to normal. The 1 and onli me! The guy who didnt used to sulk at all.. WHo onli cried at pri 5 cos of stupid higher chi. and sce 4 cos of my l1r5.. OOps.. Well.. its time to change myself back to study and study and play.. Hee.. VS life i shld come..I shall become wat i am. Sulkin damages my image sia.. No vulgarism and no nothing.. Haha.. Its time to slp well and slp tight.. Hoho..The future is here to come.. And shit.. Monday got paper 3 for chem.. Trouble la..Haha..and damn shameful.. it took yy to tell mi wat i have on monday.. Haha.. Eh.. wat i have on tues ah..BOO!
At some point of time, Life is like shit..Its time to return to wat i used to be..Come come.. Transform back!! Woohoo!!

Hao de.. ITs time for bball!!! Bball.. Here i come!!
Oh yar.. some pictures to see

Hee.. took while i was bored..My collection of walletS...Arent they nice.. Hee.. Got the new leather wallet for my bday 2005.. Hee.. Muz have cost a bomb man.. Heart break sia..

0.o.. A very belated present i recieve from mai..-8Sept2005- Haha..

And this.. A very early present i recieve from Jun xiang and yan.. Haha.. Thanks the both of u.. Haa...0.o.. and one more one more.. I cannot forget....

Ahha... THis pic.. taken on my bday.. Ask mi to pretend to cut the cake.. hee.. Its a nice.. The cake is nice..They baked for mi one leh.. Joo and gang.. Haha. The candle is i supply de.. Haha.. Come my house then found tat there was no candle. Hee..cute sia..

Eh.. sorry to the someone whom i owe many many dishes of food.. HAha.. sometime after i become chef then i cook for u.. Hee.... Jkjk. someday i bring u go eat bah.. Haha..

Screw it

2005-09-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. IF mai sees this blog she might jus kill mi.. Cant get to slp.. Slp a little late lor.. But it isnt tat i cant get to slp tonite.. Its tat i dun wanna get to slp.. DUno why.. Wondering around the house.. Looking thru my stuff.. PLaying games and stuff.. Well..yar..Kinda boring anyways..Goin to slp..

Suddenly tot of this-->I came up wif it myself. LIfe is short.Love wil make it shorter. Agree?

Today didnt study at all.. Sucks.. Suppose to put my heart and soul into studying.. But i didnt touch my books at all... WOke up wif tat stupid headache then nv go sch.. Haiz.. if not i would have studied.. Haiz..
Then i stayed at home wanting to either study or play. But both also sucks.. Cannot do..Study leh, i no mood.. Play leh.. My com spoil.. Sucks.. Took mi like the whole day to fix it lor.. Sucks la..Life is like tat.. When unhappiness come, they will all come tgt de..Yar.. this and dat all come tgt.. LIfe becomes so miserable.. Shit man.. Always at this hour. I damn sad.. THis isnt a gd period of time..

To the happy her. life isnt goin as smooth for mi like for you bah.. Smiles are hard to come by. JItao.. theres nothing wrong to be happy mah. -_-"

Shit! Why am i such a screw up! I dun understand!Prelims goin to be a screw up! Life's a mess!
-out-3.50am

Short blog...

2005-09-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

Hee... Ok...This one short short.. Today i woke up with a slight headache.. Then nv go sch..Siao liao.. DUno wat they teach sia.. Kinda worried tat i missed out allot.. Muz catch up.. Hee..Wa.. last nite bad nite sia.. See the way i myself blog.. Jitao.. so jitao..
Today starting everything fresh.. Haha... Feeling so much beta.. Home alone.. Happy leh. REally.. NO one home.. I feel so happy and relax.. Free from all the noise.. HEe.. Finally i can get down to study.. COunting.. I've got 4days left excluding today.. 4 days nia.. Jus do wat i can le.. Shit.. Tml thursday le.. Someone help mi.. Trying to stress myself up... Muz get back the all boys VS kind of attitude...

Late nite.. LoneLy LoneLy

2005-09-07T03:26:00.000+08:00

Its 3.30 am le...Aanother late nite bah.. Listening to Lin jun jie yi - qian nian yi hou...Jus finished stopped maple.. Well.. Maple maple the whole day. haiz... Sucks.. Its a pretty boring game to say.. But its nice to settle into tat game..At least when playing it will absord all the tots. Isnt it nice..Its is definitely a nice way to destress.. but it evoke more stress and anger when u die.. it sucks.. sucks u noe..Die = lost experience point.. Haiz.. Well.. jus died and got abit moody and come blog.. Afterall i haven blog for quite some time.. haiz..Lonely lonely nite..Jus now maple story got pp defame mi twice in a row for fun.. Haiz..Sad lor.. Now my fame is -4.. Sucks.. Sucks man.. Do everything also CMI.. Crap la.. QUit quit everything.. haiz..
Later i goin to wake up early in the morning to go eat mac with KS and Manz, and some other pp.. I predict all of them will be late.. now i also no mood to go eat le.. I dun even feel like eating anymore.. Haiz.. Dun even feel like goin to sch for tat fmaths lesson.. Tat lesson sound so meaningless and stupid to mi now.. Duno wanna go not.. Go le.. as if my prelim fmaths will pass like tat... Haiz.. Sian la.. Confirm fail de.. Jitao.. SUcks man..Took like 10hrs to do 1 3hr paper.. At least i manage to finish it with minimal mistake..But wats there to be proud of when i dun even noe how to do paper 2 at all.. Sucks..I do admit tat my maths isnt fantastic anymore.. Hai.. Its becoming to suck.. I realise.. Tat day dou sha bing msg mi to help her wif her maths qn. Differentiating.. I did all wrong.. Sian la.. Then she sort of turn off.. Hai.. Time to buck up le.. But is there still time?
Is there really time before the prelims? Or am i not putting in enough effort?

Haiz.. Sad to say.. My studies isnt my only problem.. Haiz.. I go out.. Wanna study.. Or go out to study.. I come home... Wat i get is all unhappiness again..HAiz.. dad and mum quarrell everyday.. Dad bu shuang wif mi and my bro.. We do everything he also not happy.. My mum.. WOrse.. She slp in her room from morning to nite.. Then nite to morning all over again.. Haiz.. If she nv slp then she hide in her room the whole day duno doin wat lor.. Haiz.. the onli times she get out of her room is when she needs to eat. haiz.. I really wan a proper family.. I wan everything to be fine u noe.. Haiz.. Is it really so hard.. Why isnt anyone giving anyone a chance to make up? Why is my mum acting this way.. Why is my dad treating my mum this way? Why? Why? all these question marks are constanting ringing in my head.. Haiz.. Is there a way to solve these problems? I really wanna have some peace.. Some quietness.. Really.. I dun wanna hide myself up in my room.. Or in the computer room everyday..My bro says tat my dad is doin his best to make up for his mistakes..and my mum is the one making things worse.. I duno.. I feel tat they arent putting their best yet.. I dun feel any love in this family anymore.. ANd whenever i think of this whole thing.. I jus cant stop myself from dropping tat few drops of tear....Who can understand this? I dun think anyone can.. Its my a level year le.. Why are things turning out this way? Why? I really dun get it.. Why did my family turn out like this? Why? Why cant i get a family like everyone's? Why not like yy? Why not like QY? Why not like JAx de? Yan de? Why?? I really jus wan a normal one.. 1 normal one.. Is it too much? Haiz..Its my wish.. My hope.. I wan things to be the same again.. HAiz..Wat did i do wrong.. Why muz god punish mi?? Why??

Prelim is around the corner le.. Haiz.. This isnt the onli problem.. Recently.. Out of no where, some people sprang out.. I'm really been tortured by them.. I'm on the brink of collapse.. They jus had to come out at this time.. Rampage my life.. My phone keeps on ringing.. My inbox filled.. I really wan some peace and silence to get myself down to study.. Really.. I wan tat..Prelim is coming in less tat 5days now.. I duno if bucking up would be too late..Haiz. If ur would mind.. giving mi some peace..

Today, jax asked mi to go his house study. Well, i went there didnt really have the mood to study.. HAiz.. he and his beloved yan talkin on phone and msning.. See them so sweet feel happy for them.. THen played maple at his house.. Cos suddenly no mood to study.. Then before tat my dad called and talked to mi.. HAiz.. he and mum keep saying tat mi and bro got a huge prob.. Tat mi and bro didnt wanna listen to them.. And my dad threaten to leave the family.. Hai.. i hear le also sad.. Seems like my dad percieve it as mi trying to destroy the family.. WO hen luan.. The more i wan the family to come tgt, THe more torn it becomes.. HAiz.. why is it like tat? Anyway..Didnt realy study at jax house.. Onli read NS and ES de notes.. Not much.. LIke 2 pages.. Then i left for him.. bout 5.30.. Then reached home.. HAiz..Reached home le i played maple again.. NOthing to also.. Mi and bro played some dota.. Cos very stress.. MY mum giving tat black fast.. She locked herself in her room.. DUNo do wat.. Haiz.. Someone teach mi wat to do.. I played till my dad reached home.. Then he reached home like reached duno some hell like tat.. Black face.. Say.. Gogogoo go out eat dinner....Then we went to 201 to eat dinner.. HAiz.. dinner leh.. As usual, quiet dinner.. Very little speech.. it wasnt like tat in the past. Hazi.. Really.. MORe lively in the past. Haiz..Now eat also no one wanns talk. SAd. Eat le i went home.. Continued to maple.. Drown myself into tat game.. Cleared some tots away.. Then my bro played dota awhile jiu slp le. Mi till now cannot slp.. COme here blog..

Btw.. jus read yoke blog.. Eh.. Well.. see her happy.. I should feel happy for her.. Yar.. At least she isnt sulking like i am.. -- The second tot was.. "No comment liao"

Sometimes i wonder.. Where was the FAng hao before he came to TPJC.. where did he disappear to.. I duno.. Its weird.. Somehow the life in this jc crippled tat fh and he vanished.. Completely gone.. Tat confidence tat he once had is gone.. Disappeared..Tat smile in his face isnt tat cheerful.. it has been weighed down by the unhappiness brought upon by himself..His enthusiasum in his studies is gone.. Tat fh who completes his tutorials on time has disappeared.. Tat fh who attends lessons regularly is gone..Tat fh who doesnt fail in his studies flung his common test..Where is the fh who excel? Where is tat guy? Fh was once an independent and "ting hua".. BUT he has turned to one rebellious guy.. Why?? In vs.. The f word wasnt used. BUt here.. its different.. WHy has it changed? Where is the Fh tat made yy smile? WHere is he? WHere is THE PAST MI?? I'm looking for myself once again.. I cant find him anymore..

Wa.. 4am le.. Its so fast.. Times flies....I'm tired of all these shit in my life.FOr those few adding shit into it.. Dun.. I might blow up.. And u will see the death of urself.. Trust mi.. NO matter how close u are to mi..

Prelims really coming le.. MAnz ask mi to study in the lib wif the rest tml. I hope i can really study.. ITs time to start.. No matter how little time left.. I shld try le.. Tat's wat i pray for... Be it doin well at the prelims or flungin it. I'm jus goin to give it a shot.. 1 shot is all i have.. Really...5days is all i have.. SHld be cutting down on my games..

To tat someone out there.. Haha.. U noe who.. Talkin to u is fun.. Hee.. can tell u my problems and its is fun.. Hoho.. remain like tat jiu hao.. Destressin too.. Haha..-yy

Wa.. Jitao...So late.. I goin to wake at like 7.55 tml morning.. I shld try to get to slp.. Jitao.. 4.15am le.. Tat means like 3 hrs of slp.. WA.. crap.. MAybe end up wif 2..Piangs, later i late then they bu shuang mi.. I try to wake up.. Muz put in effort to study le!!!! Study

I write so much liyan goin to say i got allot to say again.. Haha...Hee.. At least got thing give u read leh.. Wa.. i write so long.. Sure got lots of mistakes.. Hack la..
Ming tian hui geng hao.!!! LEt hope..

Happy day

2005-09-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

Today, woke up at bout 12 plus bah.. Cos duno why again.. Like no mood to wake.. Then slpt at 4plus 5 bah.. Sian.. Then tat nite, i had some tots running thru my mind.. Msged Joadine, YY, Mai and QY.. Wow.. Still got pp awake wor.. Haha..Was feelin kinda down at tat moment bah.. But it is over..

Well, i jus read Mai's blog.. So i talk about tat first.Wa.. She Reply to my blog sia.. Haha.. WOohoo...Wa.. jitao.. Nowadays she very emotional.. Haha.. My blog can make her go up or Feel low.. Oops.. So muz try to blog positive.. Maybe wat she said was rite.. Its time.. 1 more week to prelims. I cant afford to waste time anymore.. No more time le.. My heart has been controlling my ways.. Its time i control it.. YeaH! No worries maI.. U are Great!!

Today.. Lets talk about today. Today, was supposed to meet zelin at 10plus.. But woke up so late.. So i met him late.. But the VS gang nv fail to be late.. haha.. ALways late.. So we ended up all late.. So we started late.. BUt onli got mi zl and cygb.. Wow! rite..Ok bah... Then we started playing lan.. Feelin guilty.. Cos haven been studying.. BUt i cant study at home wif my parents whole day lidat too.. Yar..

Then at about 12.30 plus, joo called mi to ask for help.. Help her in her math. Say she and egg need so help.. Wanna mi go over.. JItao.. then i pang seh my frds go teach them math. Haha.. INtegration.. Haha.. The nite before, I jus teached Dou sha bing differentiation.. THen she told mi all wrong.. I heart break sia..But today i went over to egg house taught them, i didnt do wrong lor.. I teach correctly.. ANd carefully done them.. Stupid joo nv study hard.. She slacking and playing and listen to discman.. But whole day kena suan by mi.. Haha.. Keep kicking mi sia.. She damn crap sia.. HAha.. THe whole atmosphere was brighten up at least.The studying environment was beta.. More joyful. Then egg show off abit of her guitar skill.. Then i realise tat i suck already.. LIke ages nv touched guitar.. All forgot.. The score also duno how to see le.. Jitao.. Then become same standard as joo.. A newbie.. Haha..Maybe i shld spend sometime to revise on the few pieces i noe. HAha..

THen we went to eat at the hawker.. haha.. Ate the famous cha kwei tiao.. Haha.. Damn nice. I love it man..Shiok.. Damn good...Egg also ate the same.. Siao HJ jus ate poh pia.. Which she criticised.. Haha... The last time tat she goin to eat tat.. HAha..Then she screamed tat she wanna eat mooncake..Wan mi to treat.. Haha.. But today really short of cash..CAnt treat them haha.. Next time i will bah. Haha... :)
Hao de.... I goin to maple le bah.. haha.. Jus saw my neighbour maple too... I hope tonite i can slp well....:) I think its time to get alive...

A little time to think thru

2005-09-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

Time to post again bah. Hai.. Today i didnt go sch. Woke up very very early but i totally got no mood to go to sch. Feel so sian. Damn sucky lor.. Sucky.. Then i didnt go.. Well..

Last nite went to watch project superstar. Yup.. it was great.. Not bad bah. Was quite pleased with everyone around mi. Pleased with the overall performance. EVerything was rather great. Nice.. Weilian voice is gd.. Kelly one is stronger. Junyang is cute.. He is handsome. Jj rocks even more.. His voice is so much more power than any of those superstar. He is nice.. I will and muz go for his next performance/concert..INdoor stadium was great.. nice.. Jus my butt pain.. I started off pretty fine.. Quite ok.. Then duno why, my mood started to damp.. Yar.. Seems like everyone around mi are in their pairs.. Or have there pair... Kinda feeling nostalgic. Hai. Sudden feel of tat emptiness in mi. Haiz. After the concert, we wanted to leave early then rite. The few of us got interviewed by newpaper. hai.. Shit, i nv go buy.. Oh dear.. Asked who we supported and did we feel tat weilian deserved to win.. Well.. I said kelly outperformed herself.. Proud of her.. Haha.. WEll.. couldnt possibly say tat weilian didnt deserved rite.. He did his part. He deserve to win bah..
After tat we walked to kallang Mrt.. Quite a short walk. Then saw this girl wearing The "joadin jacket" then i told jax.. SO qiao.. she called mi..Hoho.. She was shocked about how i go the tick. haha.. Jealous eh..
Then after tat i went to bedok to eat.. By then, duno why, feelin damn low.. Jus ate.. Then went off.. Drank venom, but didnt managed to get myself dizzy or stuff..Haiz...Went home.. Didnt manage to fall aslp.. Stayed by the com till 2 plus.. Haiz.. Seems like i got a huge prob to slp.. Sucks man.. Haiz..

Talk about today, i didnt go sch. But i woke up very early.. Bout 7plus.. THen i jus lay on the bed and look blankly into the ceiling. Haiz.. Goin crazy. Then i rot till 12.30 then i wake.. Haiz.. SHit man.. I'm suppose to study. haiz..

Today, i didnt study bah.. Probably later..I jus realised one thing....
Damn!
I thought I've gotten over it..
I thought I've forgotten it..
But I didnt.
Looking at how other guys treat u well, I feel weird.
That feeling is Jealousy.
Who's this WHo's that i ask.
Time to study.
But things jus Get in my way.
The past hopes of a new beginning..
My kins hindering my studies..
I really want to do some study.
PRelim is coming in 12 days.
My future is in my hands.
I really want to work hard..
I wanna study with someone..
I want to be scolded at and be pushed to study...

Oh dear.. Where is tat VS mi man.. Fighting hard to get it back...
Prelim's aim:
A for math, A for Chem, C for physics, C for fmaths.. Time to get wat i wan.. Time to focus...

To mai.. Eh.. Everything was wat i expected. Really, but i wasnt dat disappointed as i expected myself to be. For anything tat happens, i'm jus a facilitator. 1 gd frd who wants u to stay happy. Simple..Stay happy..N i wont get into fights de.

"A query, Why is it always tat when things u wanted go ur way and u still arent happy.."
"Why some people fail to put the past as past and finding it difficult to move on, Why are some people moving on life as usual?"

Making an effort

2005-09-01T15:08:00.000+08:00

Hee.. Its been a long time since i blog.. Well. since my bday le bah. Haha. Prett long.. I said tat i wanna make my blog active.. But i quite long nv update le.. As usual.. Many things happen. So sian.. No time to update my blog...

Well,, i shld start from my bday bah.. TWell, tat nite.. Joadine called mi and wished mi Hbday. Haha.. Then mnason on msn, (quite surprised though) then got yy.. who forgot about it haha.. for tat few mins.. cos she was too engross in winning mi in the minesweeper.. Haha..Then got mai and peiying at 12. n the next morning got Qiao yun who fell aslp the nite before.. Haha.. Well thanks for wishing mi bday. My bday dat day, didnt really expect much..Cos like no mood like tat. But mai asked mi out.. But i sort of dun wan. 2 reasons, 1 is jax asked mi out le..second, orchard abit far. Then yy keep sayin mi why nv go out wif my best frd.. Ok bah.. both mai and jax did install some surprise for mi. Jax and huijoo and gang celebrated my bday wif mi. Mai wanted to bring mi go see Amir de stuff.. Some band de.. Well.. on tat day, joo and gang baked a cake and came over to my house. A chocolate mud cake.. Pretty touched. It was nice.. But joo cut so big a piece till we eat till bloated. It was nice.. Thanks for all tat ur have done.. It made mi smile bah.."p Then after tat we went to play pool then cont wif dinner. At phinps.. NV go there a again. the service is bad, attitude is bad.. And wat not.. Food wasnt great either.. Yar.. Dun go there.. Really was a turn off sia..
Well, i really hope tat the next yr would be fine.. Really jus fine..Peaceful and quiet bah.. Not so rocky. Well still having some hope on my 2 wishes this yr and 2 goals. Well this yr i recieve 2 presents already. One from jax. which was chao early de..like 5 days before my bday. Then got from yy too.. The wallet is nice.. Eh.. yar..thanks..Now got one more on its way from woodlands.. Haha..
Then ystd i went to watch THe maid with Mai.. Haha.. Mai is crazy.. haha.. SHe loves to scare the shit out of herself. Haha.. She was damn scared but she still wanna go watch the maid.. Haha.. Scream damn loud somemore.. Haha... Grab my arm sia.. Pull my sleeve.. -_-" lucky nv tear.. The ghost come out then she tio shock and screamed into my ear.. Deaf liao lor.. But it was a great show although...almost fell aslp.. Haha...Then after tat.. She met Amir. Haha.. got to know from him tat K is around in tm.. Then she go around looking for her beloved.. Haha.. But to no avail.. Super tired walking around.. Muz help her think of reason to go ntuc to look for him. End up i go ntuc buy eggs.. Haha.. lame la.. but i wanted to eat egg.. Amir laugh his head off sia..
Then last nite.. Jax came over to my house.. Studied a little then fell aslp le.. Played com wif him too.. But my house really not a gd environment to study.. AHah.. agree... Hee.. but stil i muz study here.. Then i slp at about 2am.. Haha..Jus found out tat my cousin is in love wif my ex.. and he is gifing mi allot of problem. Wo hen lei le.. I really jus wanna study onli.. Study and play.. Tats all Reallly lor.. No study no future.. No play no life..Pls.. fang guo wo hao mah.. Hai...
Wa... 4pm le.. i think i shld start to get ready to leave the place le.. Goin to watch Project superstar.. haha.. Shaung ma.. Haha.. Shiok...Really hope kelly would win.. Hope....Pray.. But weilian sold more cd sia.. Sad.. Sad.. kk .. I shld stop here..

Mood test

2005-08-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.
You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realize these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.
You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.

Study??

2005-08-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

Today is the 27.. Was meant to be a special day bah... Tml is 28.. Also meant to be a special day.. But aint excited about these 2days at all.. Really.. Yar.. Somehow this ur the 28 like not goin to be exciting.. No plans for myself.. Rmb last yr where my parents were still pretty ok and my parents were still soso mah.. Had a celebration with the class on fri.. Then my gp tch, Mr adrian tan bought a cake for mi.. Then rite.. my class celebrated wif mi during break.. They gave mi a watter bottle. Adidias de.. Bing and persis rmbed my bday then.. Bought the same bottle for mi. Haha..Yup.. Then at nite went to eat sakura with my frds.. Tat's last yr.. Feelin so nostalgic. Wat the.. Last yr is last yr le.. Kept as memories.. Wa..
For These 2 days, there are so many many many "supposed to be" tat wont be happening. Yar..So many.. 27 is one.. 28 is another one.. Think of it.. Nan mian will feel a little lor.. So many stuff happened over 28aug2004 to 28aug 2005. Yar.. Pretty alot allot..probably, some are worth rmbing, some are worth forgetting. Yar... To list the good bah.. Eh... My og.. really worth rmbing.. OG23 is the best Og tat i have taken care of. Og 23 rocks.. I wanna get back close with them.. Really.. To elvin.. I will try to org an og chalet for u guys.. Hee.. Return mi my Ogl shirt.. hee... Maths society has also been nice... I met allot of frds too.. Really..Those are worth rmbing.. There is still so many others.
Also, i have been thru so much so much for the past yr.. Allot of family problem and problem in sch.. Well.. gotta thank Mai, GK, Ky for being there for mi.. Esp mai.. Well.. sorry for being so piss off nowadays.. Duno why.. Yar...Will try to bemore eloquent.(correct spelling mah?)Oh.. and not forgetting Yokeyee---Jax, and now studying wif mi de frds.. I Love u guys... Really..
Haiz.. dun wanna talk about my past yr.. Not so gd..
Well.. there are 2 wished i have this yr... Pray tat it would come true..YAr...Pray hard...
Haiz.. after my bday, it would be my prelims le.. My prelims are coming in less than 20days.. Wanna study also muz force myself so hard..Duno why become like tat..Actually i expected this.. Haiz.. so now is work hard lor.. Work...
Anyway.. i duno how i'm goin to celebrate bday this yr.. Everything is pretty in a mess for mi le.. I jus hope tat at least this 1 special day for mi can go smoothly.. Yar..I mean it. Smoothly..
Shit 2 more hours to my bday.. Suddenly feel a little down.. Ok.. buck up.. Muz be excited..

A side note.....(Something i learnt)(something tat feline said)"When u talk about loving someone, it isnt about u wanting the person to be happy, It isnt about jus letting the person u go.U would wanna be with the person u love.." Everyone agree? Agree..
Another side note...(something Qiaoyun send mi)"Everyday u wake up... U are blessed with 2 choices.. 1 is to be happy.. 2 to be sad... U make the choice to be happy or sad..In life, there are many choices tat one needs to make in life. It is u tat makes the choice..Make it a wise choice."

Today i make a choice.. I goin to stay up late.. Yeah... Either study or play thru the nite... Suddenly dun feel like slping.. Yeah.. Make a fresh start of my 18 yr..
Coming to 18.. Muz make more choices.. Be more responsible.. Well... Changyi told mi some of his views.. I will rmb it...
Wow.. I've survived 18 yrs le..
Wat is it like to be 18? How will i spend my 18? Wat is it goin to be like?? 1 qn.. How does it feel like being drunk? Haha...

Oh yar.. 1 qn to ponder upon......Anyone noes?
"Are u really happy inside when u are happy outside? When are u truely happy? How can 1 be truely happy.. When u see 1 smiling the whole day and crappy the whole day, Does it mean tat the person is happy? How do u really noe tat the person is happy? Do u bother about whether ur frd is happy or not? When do u become bothered about whether ur frds is happy or not?" think about it..

20% of my effort

2005-08-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

Today i studied at the lib for one whole day.. From end sch till jus now 8.45pm.. About 6hours..Study bout 4hours in total bah.. Little bah.. Onli mi and darren study.. Yup.. Tried doin maths.. ENd up doin 6qns.. Yup.. about 1hour 1 qn.Haiz.. Sian la.. My maths deproved allot le.. Haiz..The paper 1 fmaths suppose to take ystd de. I took so long to do.. Haiz.. then i scold this scold tat.Haiz..But i did 5 qn bah.. Then darren abit shocked.. Jitao.. 5qn onli lor. I so disappointed le but he say i not bad.. Already do 5 le. Haiz.. Ok bah.. Today i did maths and maths and maths onli.. hai nothing else.. haiz.. Maths is my life.. Muz improve.. Improve.. Would like to further maths later on.. hai..
Then now rite.. my arm is so painful.. Injured from pullups.. HAiz.. sian.. injured again.. Jitao... really pain.. But i like to pull..
Now my house abit empty.. Jitao... No one home like tat.. Onli mi and bro.. haiz....Boring. Later maybe study for long long time thru the nite.. Hope someone can pei mi.. Tml is fri le.. I goin sch.. Early in the morning.. mUz wake up.. muz.. Damn sian.. muz start to study...Haiz...
Canot skip lessons le.. haiz.. Cannot.. Muz buck up.. But the lessons really waste of time. Yup.. Waste time sia..
Tml is fri le.. somehow i dun get excited even though it is nearin my bday.. Duno why.. Like everything changed or something.. Haiz.. Somehow the bday celebration i had last yr.. I wished for it again.. With everyone and everybody.. Haiz.. Can it be the same? I wan.. Hai.. ok.. dun think too much.. maybe i end up goin cycling or eating by ecp..
Somehow in the midst of all this studying i'm trying very hard to get into.. I feel tat life is diff.. Yar.. Life is changed.. Somehow i feel something is missing here and there.. Yar.. Duno leh..

Study

2005-08-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

Today quite a sian day.. Study study nia.. Actually not studying, is doin tutorial. Hai.. Do half hour tutorial at the lib from about 5.50 to 6.20 lidat nia.. With mai lor.. Then her sc frd got horny then duno talk wat crap.. But still managed to study abit about my math..Polar Co-ord.. Haha.. Bing see le then he laugh.. "Polar studyin Polar Co-ord.." -_-" Haha..Wat the.. hee.. But tats nice.. Got some laugh off some really diff topic.. Polar Co-ord sucks.. EVen my tch had to take quite some time to figure out how to solve.. Yup..
Today i was in an extremely foul mood anyone who meets mi got some tip off from mi.. Yup. Then Jus now all the while so pis.. Irritated liddat.. Scold this scold that.. Then mai was all the while saying.. Relax relax.. Can u not be so pis.. Relax.. Wat is irritating u? Was it a bad start early in the morning by ur parents? Probably.. But bad mood leh.. Scold and scold non stop.. Even bus also i scold..Then mai said.."can u not be so pis.. When u so pis i wil be adversely affected and become irritated.." wahaha... Ooops sorry.. But i really not in mood. Yar..Duno why.. Then after studying, i send her to bus stop and watched her board the bus.. She ah.. She and Kk.. Hai.. Kk.. shld grow up.. Mai shld try to change him or wat.. But do not led him on k.. Trust u.. But from wat i jus heard from u.. Its worrying..Yup.. Then after send her off.. Met fiona.. Then she ask mi pei her wait for one more bus.. Jitao... hee.. OK bah. I dun mind actually.. But where is eric..Hao le.. I shld not scold the whoel world.. Muz control hee..Anyway.. There also met bing wen. Hoho..Yup..
In the afternoon, i got test.. the stupid chem test.. Damn.. Out of 10 essay qn.. Not even one completed.. Tat is bad.. Really bad.. Promise not to go for the test.. But boon , mans, the rest drag mi go for it.. haiz.. GO lor.. Try try my luck... BUt the paper was really hard i shld say.. Probably i wont have this prob if i had enough practice.. Haiz.. So muz buck up.. Yar...Haiz.. Flung tat crap paper.. the next one i shld do beta.. Yeah..Now i shld go try my math test paper tat i day today.. And also the chem paper again.. And the polar co-ords.. Yup.. Sian.. So many things to do.. Still muz go find articles for gp.. Jitao.. Sian liao.. Still need help joo contact her.......guy... Yup. So many things to do.. Help.. gimme energy gimme time... Off~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!

Today..

2005-08-23T21:46:00.000+08:00

Today pretty pleased wif myself But somehow i feel a little empty here and there.. Not confidence in myself.. Yay.. Duno how to get it back.. Shit man.. Becoming more and more fierce by the day.. Wat the hell.. Haiz.. Then family also so messed up.. How how ah.. Jitao.. MAde a few stupid decisions this week sia...JItao... Crap...

1st Post

2005-08-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

This my first proper post for my new blog.. Yup.. Jus changed a new tag board. Hope it would solve the problem of pp cannot tag. Yup.. My new blog nice not.. Looks like got some gd comment.. From Yan.. Hee..Thanks ya...

Ok.. Today studied at lib. Yar.. OK bah.. Did a few qn. Yar.. But at least i completed those.. Then darren was doing maths too. Yeah. Managed to figure out the few hard qn.. Quite an achievement.. In the midst, went down to look for Mai.. Jitao.. She so unlucky.. On her way to sch early in the morning, her bus caught fire.. Haha.. Ok.. Dangerous.. Lucky she didnt get burn.. Yeah.. Called her to make sure she was fine. Then fell aslp again.. Wa.. duno why dun feel like goin to sch.. Yup. I ended up sch at bout 10.40 like tat to attend the remaining few lessons. But so stupid rmb the time table wrongly.Tot left 1 period.. Haiz.. Then went for so many lessons.. BUt at bout 10.40 i reached sch tat time, i was told tat the first 4 periods i missed was their free periods.. Haha.. Lucky sia.. So i didnt miss out.. Got more energy to study instead.. Well.. then aft everything, i went to lib to study.. Tio piang seh. but also gd.. The 2 of us then study more.. But i short attention span. Disturb darren a little. Yup.
Then study in lib til bout 7plus.. Then dou sha bing came over to ask mi maths qn.. Jitao.. Stun tio.. Duno how to do.. Oh not duno how to do, but is i no confidence to do.. Then took quite some time to do.. Well was quite disappointed wif myself. But at the end managed to solve it.. So yar pretty ok NOw.. But i got no speed at all. Well.. shld be studyin again.. Buck UP Buck UP.
Yeah.. got my first present from Jx and Yan.. Thanks allot.. Thanks..Its nice.. Thanks..
Tml got chem test. Shld i go?? Diao.. Shld i?? Haiz..Later fail how.. Then sad case.. Go or not?? I dun wanna waste 3hours sitting for the paper.. Nvm.. i shld still study for it.. Whether i goin or not.. Yup..

New Blog

2005-08-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. I'm starting with a new blog all over again.. The last one was pretty dull and stagnant.. I wanna make this an active one.. Yar.. Starting fresh..Yeah.. Ok.. its late.. I guess i shld be goin off to study..Shall Blog whenever i got the time... Yup.. Took pretty quite sometime to do up this blog. Yup.. Hope its beta than before de.. Yup.. Last time use black.. Today this one use white..Shld be nice la hor.. Add some colours and some cartoon.. Nice mah? Gimme some comments.. Help mi make my blog active..Shall Blog again tml.. Study time...

Today

2005-08-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

Today muz blog.. cos ystd nv blog.. CAnot cannot its like 12 le lor.. Goin to slp.. Ystd said will blog today so i'm here to blog.. Allot of things happened ystd.. But now i'm tired.. Slpy le.. SO i shall blog again tml.. Now.. i"m very lame... Gods. how to walk to sch lidat..... LAme all the way to sch... Lame si le... Tired.. SHall reblog again tml.. Hee...........
Happy 40th birthday singapore!!
Can i meet my baobei tml??? Hope to meet her at my house.. Can i??Hoho..... Prays....

Today~~~~Happily SickEd

2005-08-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

Today went out wif ky and gk the whole day then noe some shocking news about ky.. Haiz.. Actually wanted to blog about today but i dun think i can blog le.. Cos so tired.. So sick now.. Stomache... Headache.. "Vomit" feeling... Haiz.. Hopefully i dun get food poisoning from the food i ate jus now..Pray hard..
The firework is great.. I shall reblog again tml...*Prays*
Abit unlucky these days... Relapse of my leg injury...Relapse of my backache.. Haiz.. Wat the rubbish...I wanna be well again.
Today a happy thing.. Yy came over to eat lunch wif mi.. So happy... *Flying to the sky*.. Haha......
HaiZ.. Really sick le....
Slp le...

Fark~!

2005-08-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

Farking hell.. If u got nothing to post then dun post.. Cos all these unnecessary stuff... CB... Things tat are history le still bring up.. Fark la... Irritated.. Bo liao.... From nothing muz bring up something.. Liddat u very song is it? Stupid lor.. Extremely stupid..If u got nothing then dun tag too.. THanks... End of story..Damn pissed..

Love ya lots~!. Yy~!Junyang rocks...~!~!

Thanks pp

2005-07-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

I guess i shldnt be here to add on to everyone's sadness... Goin off.... Signing out...

Thanks everyone who were concern.........

GoodBye!

This msg is for everyone who is beside mi out there....

2005-07-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

As i type this msg i'm tearing..... Yup.. Jerald might say that i'm the new generation of crybaby guys.. Yar.. I dun deny that i tear quit abit...
Well... its been quite awhile that mi smiled.. Well... I rarely do smile when i'm alone bah... Its probably wif her that i smile.. I mean yokeyee.. Yes.. Yokeyee... Yar...She has been a great girl to mi.. Well.. i cant deny that my frds doesnt like her and she doesnt like my frds. I dun mind being stuck in btw..But rite.. Wat i wanna see is probably both of them shake hands.. Ok.. Huiqing doesnt like yokeyee from the point when hk told us stories..Yar..Tat was when.. But to everyone out there.. I TRUELY LOVE YOKEYEE.....I LOVE HER.... Yup.... SHe is everything to mi now.. I onli wan her.. Huiqing is jus angry now.. Yup.. she is.. Yokeyee is also angry.. Yar.. she is...Both are angry.. Hai.. But there is nothing that i can do.. I duno wat to do.. I promise yokeyee not to come into the problem. Yes... Its btw the girls.. Jus let things simmer down alrite.. Look huiqing.. U noe how much i love yokeyee... I love her...Cant live without her.. Yup... U love ur bf... Yokeyee say ur bf then u go angry so much.. I love yokeyee too... I feel hurt the way u shot the words back at her too.. Now, yokeyee hates mi for my frds.. Hai...U guys noe who i would choose.. Yokeyee... Huiqing.... rmb the time when alvin hated u cos of 04s24... U felt very much rite..U noe how sad u were.. Tat time u jus stead wif him too.. Yar...Now rite.. I love her so so so so much.. Cant lose her anymore...

Yokeyee... u must be really frustrated now..U wanna return to january.. I wanna fresh start of this relationship.. Laughter... and lots.... Those were lost in the midst of this confusion.. Yesh...Yup.. for a couple.. We muz face things tgt.. Wateva tots muz tell mi de.. I really wanna noe....If not i will jus be worried.... Yes... Today i crapped a little.. then u laughed and smiled... wa.. i was so happy.. We can return to the past.. Gif it a try.. Really..There is this deep love within us.. U noe it... Love is something no one can explain...Jus that things didnt go our way.. Yar...Yup.. U might be crying now.... Hai.. i feel something....There is always ways to overcome a problem...there is.. Yes.. for this relationship.. lets jus gif it a shot.. I really wanna gif it a shot.. Ultimately i love u. Yokeyee u are a great girl...

To everyone.... I love her....... Gimme a chance to be wif her....................................................I really need her........................

Cry Baby..

2005-07-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

This is a continuation of the previous one.. haha.. Yeah...My mood swing very fast.. Now i chao happy liao.. haha.. Cos she no more angry le.. No more angry wif mi at least.. Haha.. I love my bao bei... I tel u a secret... " its the best if bf is stupid.. cos if he's stupid.. he would be willing to do everything for u.. If he's stupid.. he will treat u nice and he will not be unfaithful.. He will be truthful and hold only u and onli u in his heart.. " Haha.. Hows this explaination??

Hao bah..Was talking about jun xiang.. He was so happy playing wif my bro till he so tired..Haha.. then rite.. aft my bro left. Hee.. he was alone.. So mi and yy came over to join him.. We watched the jue dui superstar.. Haha..So nice rite.. Not all but quite nice bah... Haha...Used my com to watch in the end.. The tape i used to record got some problem.. keep jerking.. Then they bully mi.. ask mi to sit at the video there.. cos when i sit there there would be no jerking.. But it didnt work. It still jerked.. Wa.. then i ben ben go sit there..Hee.. Aft that.. Jx decided that he shld blog.. Haiyo..He wanted to blog.. Duno why such a sudden also.. Haha.. Wanted to see wat he was goin to blog.. Then he chased mi and yy away. Haha.. SO we siam to enjoy ourselves.. Haha..

After awhile after he finished bloggin.. Baobei went to his blog to read.. Haha.. I read too.. HIs whole entry all talk cock till the last line got meaning nia.. Haha. The last line is the critical and main point.. Haha.. Ur go see then ur noe liao...Anyway.. aft that.. We left.. Sent yy home.. Haha.. Mi and jx duno where to eat so we were deciding on where to eat.. Haha.. Then i got this urge to send yy home.. So i told him to go s 11 to eat.. Haha.. Yeah. So can take same bus there.. So happy.. Then when yy left for home.. I was sad.. Cos i will start to miss her again.. And now i'm missing her like mad liao.. Guess i cant live without her... Haha...

Then went to S11 food court to eat the hot plate style fried rice.. Haha.. Jap stlye.. Pretty nice for a 3 bucks stuff.. Jx ate his fav niang dou fu.. haha.. Jus wat.. we took like less that 5 mins to finish out food.. Haha.. then aft we finished and looked at each other in stun... Then jx said as he looked at his watch , "wa.. we so fast finish eating liao" Haha..I laughed..

Then aft that we very bo liao.. Finish eating then very full.. So we walked home tgt.. It was pretty fast lor.. Haha..I guess we also walked damn fast bah.. He came over to my house and played a game and left.. Something happen to his sis's frd parents which affected his mum,.. Hope they are ok liao.. Prays..Everything will be fine de...

I guess jx is missing ly.. I'm so misssing yy now.. Haha. Really man.. i wanna her to stay happy.. She is everything to mi.. We made a pair of rings.. So happy now.. Haha.. And she wanna buy a wallet for mi.. I'm so overjoyed.. Hee...

Such a happy day..RuiNed By YOU!!! U U AND UUUU

2005-07-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hai.. today is such a happy day.. i had such a happy day wif yy today.. Really so happy lor...i enjoyed so much wif her.. EAting ajisan today wif her was such a pleasure.. Being wif her was so fun... Haha..I spent the whole day slacking wif her..JunXiang was bored so he came over to my house to play com wif my bro..Ya...He enjoyed himself so much too.. Yar.. i guess he did bah.. Haha.. He played so much till he so tired.

Hai..I love my BaoBei.. Dun wanna her to get irritated.. hai.. Pls dun irritate her...Now i'm tearing so much till i cant blog already.. Blog another time.

I've blogged, YokeYee!!

2005-06-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

Wa.. long time haven blog le.. Haha... Haha.. I've blogged le YokeYee.. Haha.. Nv bluff u mah.. Hee..Eh... Common test has jus been over.. it was terrible for mi.. I've nv been attacked by such tests before.. Or shld i say I duno how to do more than 50% of the qns.. Sucks rite.. Hai.. Too long haven study le.. Sian liao lor.. Haha.. U see rite..So long nv touch my chem and my maths.. Now they have detoriated till a state of emergency.. Hai.. Muz try to salvage it now le. Hai.. Really ruin my life sia.. I cant.. Muz start to pia.. Muz pia.. Pia for the future.. Haha..Cannot gu fu so many pp dui wo de qi wang.. Haha... Yeah..But where shld i start from ah.. Hai.. Nvm..i shall do my TYS first then say.. hai.. But i think my brain has reached its saturation point liao.. Hee...Really reached liao Haha.."p So now muz try to squeeze in more.. Hee.. This time my fmaths and maths was the biggest blow to mi.. Hai.. My fmaths rite..Hai. Like out of 15 qn i duno how to do 7.. Thats damn bad.. hai.. So sian.. In my fmaths i duno how to do my mechanic.. Buts in cmaths i duno how to do my stats.. Sian liao lor.. Hai..U see.. My fmaths deprove like hell.. But one sad case.. I cant have Hon Yuen and micheal and man yiu to pia wif and not forgetting euguene.. Hee. that Kind of pia that no one can have in tpjc..Hee.. But they were so pro.. So gd.. So fun to pia...Hai.. feeling nostalgic when i talk about them.. hee.. Haha..*Yay* Hon yuen is coming back.. Haha duno if its 12 or 14 july. Haha.. Coming back for hols bah.. THen i studying... Hee.. Wat a not so correct de correct timing.. Cos i got no test. Haha...
Yeah..Today haven gone out.. but Jun Xiang came over to my house pei mi awhile.. Ooops.. nv tell yokeyee...hEE...yar..Eh.. Jus came my house watch 2 vcd then went home le.. Haha.. Liddat.. Haha.. Wa.. today mi and yoke practically used the com the whole day.. Although we didnt meeet but we like chat online the whole day. from Aft till evenin and now also.. haha.. Yeah..Got so much to talk.. Hee.. then SHe wrote mi a testimonial and i wrote her one. haha..Hoho..

"Things I Sweared Will Always Be Things I Sweared. I Will Keep My Words."

Tonite...

2005-06-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

This is the second time i've blog in like a few hours bah.. Got some little things wanna say.. So i came here to say le lor..Well.. I duno why yy is irritated but.. She always says it will be over after she slp for one day.. Yar... ANyway...I've decided to watch the whole series of tian long ba bu tonite.. Which will i will start watching like at bout 1.30 am plus.. guess it will last thru the nite till tml aft bah..But its ok.. I got energy and dun feel like slping so i go watch lor.. Hee.. Hope its nice.. Dun waste my effort to stay up to watch.. Mean while i can stone there a little while.. Hai.. Nothing to do now... Feelin sick...From the steamboat.. But nvm la.. Sick jiu sick.. Its ok.. Sick but tml i still goin sch to study.. Alone bah... Maybe i shld go for a little Jog.. maybe 2.4 of 4.8 early int eh morning or something.. Exercise a little bah.. Hai.. Long time nv run... Hee..My same old thoery.. HAha..(mood inversely proportional to timing) haha..."p

Haiz....

2005-06-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a normal day.. Hai.. DUno wat is wat liao.. I'm lost.. Duno wat to do le... Yokeyee ystd she say she not angry wif mi.. Then today now, she is irritated wif mi le... Hai.. How ah.. I'm lost.. I tot everything was ok when i boarded the train.. I can feel that she is irritated wif mi.. But i duno wat to do.. But on the train i tot everything is ok wif mi le. But she was still irritated..Now i'm lost..
Anyway.. today is Jun xiang's bday.. Eh.. tried making him happy bah.. Hope he enjoyed his Bday.. Hope everything goes smoothly for him in the future.. NO need wish him luck in his exams de. He will do well for sure de.. No problem... Today planned a surprise for him.. Yoke and Huiyi at tenah merah and huijoo and Eggy at marina bay mrt.. Haha.. Not bad bah.. It was pretty fun bah.. Now still quite full.. Hao bah.. i think i shld end here... I wana see u smile....:)

Bad DaY??

2005-06-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

Wa... Now its 1.40am liao.. I jus reached home?? Yar.. CYcled all the way home.. From Tm to marine parade to east coast park to bedok reservoir and back to tm again.. Not bad eh.. IN the midst i went back and forth btw VS and Marine parade twice.. Jus to find my spanner.. Haha.. Now damn tired.. Hai.. Not i wanna say.,. Duno if its mi or its the bike or its jus mi?? I think i got bad luck cycling.. Hai.. Cycle jus now then suddenly the chain got jammed then my foot got pushed forward.. Due to inertia.. Then my big toe went into the spinning wheel then now got 2 cuts on the foot.. Damn pain sia.. Bleeding. Hai.. Nvm.. jus leave it as it is bah.. Hee..But its really very er xin lor.. DUn wanna see it lor.. Sian.. THen rite.. mys chain got stuck twice.. Like shit sia.. Stuck...then injured twice.. Hai.. shld i quit cycling? But i love it.. CYcling wif Gk they all is fun.. But i injured like duno wat and tired like duno wat...Duno whether dear yoke would scold mi not... Sigh...But today i made her angry.. Probably cos she felt that she cant study wif mi or maybe i pang seh her.. Sorry.. So sorry.. DIdnt mean it de.. Sorry..Anyway.. my leg is gross.. Really gross.. Hai.. U noe wat that means? No shoe for one whole week or more till the wound heal.. Sian la.. But haha. can wear my slippers... Hee.. not bad eh.But muz rmb not to wear jeans.. If not look like toot toot....HAha..
Oh yes.. Has been studying quite allot these days... All thanks to yokeyee.. HAha.. Damn gd lor.. Hee...Duno why she can make mi wake so early to study.. hee.. At least i'm now getting into the mood to study all thanks to her.. Heee.. U are the best.. HOpe u can do well in ur common test.. ALl the best..Ur the best!!

The Next Day

2005-06-12T15:36:00.000+08:00

Eh...That time i said the next day was goin to be beta.. It was really gre8 man.. The next day was pretty cool..I enjoyed the next day spending the whole nite wif her again.. Really appreciated that.. Haha.. I'm so happy... Ok.. i goin siao liao..Haha.. YEah.. was really happy... Anyway.. Went to CCHs the Npcc campfire.. Haha.. So happy.. IT was so-so bah.. I was an outsider to the whole thing and so it was quite a bore to mi.. BUt lucky got guan kai.. He crap wif mi.. Haha.. So happy.. ANd this is the first time we see Ky so hyper... Haha...Yay.. She says.. she wanna meet mi on monday aft her lessons.. I'm so happy.. Yay....

Home2 (Cont aft i came back from cycling)

2005-06-11T03:00:00.000+08:00

Well.. i ended pretty abruptly...Haiz..Ooops.. i said i had a long entry to write and wa.. i really got a long entry to write... Shish.. Ok... i recieve dear's msg.. then she said she was awake.. Then suddenly wanna go find her..So i decided to cycle down immediately.. Rushed down like crazy.. Cycled very fast.. And i reached in like less than 5 mins.. Fast eh.. But When i reached.. No matter how i msg her she also dun wanna see mi.. Duno wat happened again...Cycled all the way down.. Dun even wanna open the door.. Saded la.....+ tired.....I tot the least she could do was to open the door to ask mi go home face to face... But she didnt.. felt really sad and jus left her house.. When coming back..Bought a bottle of vitamilk to drink $1.20 .. Pretty ex la.. But nvm.. Then sat down at her void deck to drink.. Self romantic...Haha... Farnie ah... Ok.....(thats not farnie at all) Anyway, this is the last nite i can really pei her chat and play.. But eh.. no more chance le.. Its gone anyway.. No point broading over it liao.. Tml's another gd day bah!!! I mean later...
I'm tired liao...Really tired....

Home..

2005-06-11T02:06:00.000+08:00

Well.. finally reached home about half hour ago bah.. Its like 2am now already..The farnie thing is that i'm still so energetic.. But that yy has fallen asleep like 1hour ago liao.. Tat's why i came home le..If not i will be over at her house..She so tired lor...Dun wanna exhaust her by asking her to pei mi chat thru the nite.. Later she fall ill then not gd.. But its pretty sad la.. Tml her parents come back liao.. Tat means that my number of times meeting her will be reduced by at least half.. Hee... her sms explode liao also...But at least she pei mi these few days.. from last fri till today.. This fri.. Happy..Well.. we cleared alot of our own tots and feelings. Had one realy heart to heart talk... Really appreciated all the love lor...Smiles.. Anyway.. i puked on my way back...Sian.. Damn body.. So sucky.. Bought a cup of super big gulp..100plus...Drank like 5/6 of the cup till my house void deck then i throw away.. Stupid drink.. Made mi puke twice...-_-" Wont drink that anymore...Shish.. i still so awake now.. Think i goin to blog a chao long one liao.. Haha..Ok.. back to the last few days.. Really happy to be wif her... Saw changes in her.. Saw many things.. Saw her life...Ate her big big portion of the tom yam soup..Now still full la...Haha..the soup was pretty gd i shld say..I spent so much time wif dear but i haven got enough.. and wont get enough of her.. Die.. i'm so dead.. Does that mean that i'm sooooooo deeply in love??Haha..
Eh today studied over in the airport.. Pretty gd start but aft that i couldnt continue to study and started to slack... Did like 3 qns onli la.. One qn i did half hour liddat..Bad rite..Managed to help dear wif some of her questions...Hope it really helped her.. Cos i noe i'm not a gd teacher...But i really liked studying wif her...Anyway.. Haven take neo print wif u la...I wanna take.. Dun ask mi for wat... No reason...Jus wanna take..
Well.. on june 8 i finally breeze thru that hectic day.. Almost died la.. It was mai's bday.. But i guess i screwed it up.... Didnt really celebrate wif her.. Jus one surprise thats all.. Actually i didnt noe that the surprise would work cos it was really last min la.. Jus so lucky u let mi see ur hp then got his number and arranged for him to come down secretly. And he really got allot of sms to spare....:) He's a great guy...Happy bday mai.. HOpe u enjoyed ur time wif him..Smiles...

Back!

2005-06-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

Well, its the second day i'm back from the famine camp... fAmine camp.. Well....tired bah.. Thats the best word to use..The camp was fun i shld say.. It was really interesting...30 hours of starvation was not bad.. I didnt really feel hungry but i felt tired in fact. Haha:) Well.. i was really happy that Yokeyee came very close to mi throughout the whole camp.. I was really and seriously very happy.. Chao happy la... U are gr8.. Well.. in the camp i met a few other frds bah.. MAde a few new frds.. B9 was gr8.. But she's beta.. Ur the best.. i loved being wif u.. The camp was fun and wateva not.. Played many diff games.. tried to piggy back YY but i made her more afraid than ever.. So sorry.. I not trustable de.. Yar.....:( Then also got teach other stuff and showed us some video about the poverty and other troubles in the 3rd world countries.. It was pretty fun.. Anyway... overall i enjoyed allot and had lots of fun...
That nite aft the camp.. Didnt go home.. Went out to overnite for the last time before my parents came back.. It was gr8 being wif u all the time.. Trust mi...
Hai..Manage to start studying le.. But i really wanna study wif u and provide u wif solutions to ur maths question...Hoping for that day to come...
Anyway..Hopin to be able to pei u tml...Currently duno if u are irritated.. Duno if its mi or wat.. But everytime u are irritated i would be damn scared la.. I swear...I hope u can always stay happy.. and smile.. Dun get irritated so easily kk.. MUz relax abit.. Stay the yokeyee u are now kk....:)
Yeah.. prepare for tml....
(this part is updated after u called mi)Anyway.. i'm very very happy wif wat u are now.. haha.. Reallly.. love u for wat u are now and before.. Haha..:) smiles....Haha.. u talkin to ur daddy now.. hee... Waiting patiently for ur call.. Haha.. Damn happy now..Haha.. duno why...Still waiting though.. Haha.. i think i mad le...:)Shish.. I write so much.. I'm dead...Smiles.....

Life's like that...

2005-06-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hai.. wat another day gone.. Cooked my own lunch cum dinner cos i like cooked so long lor.. Ate as i cooked.. Hai.. I think i jus cant do anything well bah.. really.. Duno why.. i seem to make everyone sad and went i try to make them happy, i seem to make matters worse.. Ok.. I suck...
Yar.. today is jus another day.. Normal bah.. Thinking about stuff and stuff. Ok gotta confessed that i went to Tm for awhile to top up my farecard and stuff.. When i was there, i kinda recieved a call from Mai saying tat she was around so i decided to see how she was after not catching up wif her for sometime.. Jus wanted to see the couple-couple couple bah.. Well wat i wanted was that simple.. Ok. wanted to disturb them alittle.. Eh..Probably things have changed bah.. I called her and asked her where she was bah.. But.. HAi.. it jus didnt work out bah.. Got a scolding from her.. Well sorry.. shldnt have gone over either.. He's ur onli dear.. Anyway, i've gotta learn not to be a big light bulb around.. Sorry.. Maybe things have changed and that i'm definitely not paranoid. Like in Fiona's blog, things have changed..People have changed too.. Ha. probably u are getting tired of mi.. Oops.. Most probably.. But rite.. Ur bday is coming.. Well asked u to celebrate wif mi.. Die haven buy present for u. Oops.. But i've known wat to buy le.. Hee.. OK.. maybe u might find me irritating.. but rite..U are always my best frd.Rmb that kk...Yar probably i'm really irritating to everyone.. But i hope i wont be irritating one day..
Anyway.. today is a soso day bah...Wa.. got pretty fun at home.. Hee..:)
Well... its been a long times since i cooked.. Hee.. Also, i'm getting into the mood to study le. Haha.. HAppy eh.. Exams are coming le...i wonder how my parents are? HOpe they are not quarrelling now.. Hope...WA.. shit sia.. Why do i have so many things to be bothered about? So sick la.. I think i shld jus clear my mind from them...
Sat is coming liao. i goin for the femine camp if u guys noe wat it is? Its from sat to sunday aft.. 30 hours of femine.. Hee... PAid 20bucks to starve actually.. Yokeyee and her frds are goin.. onli 3 from tpjc lor.. SO little.. Haha.. My gd frd zelin is goin too.. So happy...Long time nv meet him le.. Hee..Hai.. so long liao..Haha.. LAn LaNkLuB.. Haha.. Muz revive kk?? Haha...I miss the VS frds.
Ok i shld stop here le.. I miss the special one.. The frdship i had wif my best frd too...

Bad day!!

2005-06-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

I seem to be able to blog best when i'm in a frustrating mood.. Well. today sucks.. Woke up so early duno for wat reason.. Go for that stupid maths olympiad. Damn it la.. Go for such stupid things. But onli those choosen to go can go la.. Haha.. Yeah.. Duh... HEe. Ok.. but duno why they choose mi to go cos i'm damn stupid u realise.. I'm like the stupid-est person on earth la.. Haha..
Well actually was really in a bad mood la.. The whole world jus sucks.. hAi.. I hate thsi world.. Can i jus die? Hai.. U see.. Jus now was talkin to mAi. then my mum jus picked up the house phone and she jus talked it thru and said to put down the phone. STraight into the phone.. Wat the hell is that needed for? Then she scolded mi lor..Wat the hell la.. Like my fault like that.,. I wanna use the phone.. cannot meh? Muz come disturb mi.. But she is my mum afterall.. Muz respect her although sometimes i duno why she gets so angry for.. And all my frds are afraid of her.. Even Yokeyee.. But Yokeyee saw how nice she was wif Guan kai and Kiat Yong rite.. OK..
Actualy.. today i kinda waited for ur msg..Hee.. Hopin u would ask mi about my olympiad.. Cos i tot i wouldnt do well but wanted to msg u.. Then i tot u might be busy and so i restricted myself from msgin u. haha.. Crap i noe..
I'm tired of my families le. MY studies.. I'm tired of studying alone liao... I'm pretty tired about my families.. Sometimes i'm worried about mai too.. Now tat i heard so much from her.. My best frd. leh.. Mus try help help alittle.
Anyway.. till date.. so many problems are affecting mi.. I really hope i dun pass all these probs to her.. That special her. WAn her to stay happy.. wif or without mi around.. I'm tired.. I'm sick...Actually....EH.. why cant i jus have a proper family? Why ah...I wanna go out picnic wif my family like before.. i wanna go to genting wif them.. I wan.. But i still hoping that it will become beta.. It will ba..:) But now its the a's.. But my first priority is u! U! Hee..Now i'm smiling jus becos u are chatting wif mi online.. Wa.. SO effective drug...

HAppy DaY

2005-05-30T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yeah... today is a happy day. so happy.. Went out wif Yoke Yoke.. Haha.. So happy.. Yeah.. Finally can go out wif her again.. But its like oni 2days aft went out wif her to the concert.. Haha.. Oh dear.. I die la.. Muz study le.. Hee.. Yeah.. muz concentrate.. Haha.. ANd i wanna study wif u on thurs. Haha.. Yeah.. But i noe u will nv agree to it de.. HEe.. But nvm... Someday u will agree to study wif mi bah.. I really can study de. Hee.. YEah.. Haha.. duno why i decided to blog aft my dad screamed at mi.. JItao.. Went study for awhile bah.. My eyes still not tired today.. DUno why.. Haha.. Maybe i'm back to my owl habit.. Hee.. Bad habit.. Haha.. But nvm.. ITs holis.. Haha.. Ahah.. today went to bugis.. Wanted to get a present for mai.. But eh.. Its weird.. I didnt get anything and spent most of my money.. Haha.. and Yokeyee.. EVen worse..Spent all her money.. And didnt get a present for her dear qiu yi.. Haha.. U ah.. Spent so much.. But i spent more.. HEe.. Oh dear.. I'm so happy i duno why. HAha.. Hope to be able to see u some time soon again.. Hee.. Thursday kk?? HAha.. Impossible rite.. Haha..:) But smiles.. muz give u breathin space.. Haha..:)

HaHa... Finally updated...

2005-05-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

Wa.. its like how long since i updated my blog liao..Its like so many pp goin to scold mi liao lor. Esp YokeYoke bah.. haha.. Abish mi to blog.. Today i'm goin to type a long long one.. Cover all the past that has happened.. all the unhappiness bah.. haha.. Yeah...
Yeah.. Anyway.. many things happened..Happy and sad... But now i'm like very happy lor.. See.. *smiles* *smiles*Haha.. YEah....
Well for the last 2 days. I've been goin to concerts aft concert.. Hee...on 27 went for the TJC de.. Haha.. Support my frd Manyiu and Eggy.. Hee.. Yeah.. Both of them were gre8.. So happy for them to be able to go on stage.. Yeah.. So happy.. for them lor.. I hoped i was that talented and able to go perform lor.. Saded.. Now i dun le.. But. i noe that i'm not that talented lor.. Hee.. Gd luck for u Eggy.. Next yr maybe come see ur performances again bah.. Hee.. I'm happy for u guys..Oh.. that guitar concert i went wif YokeYoke.. Haha... It was a nice concert lor.. NIce...Rite.. Yokeyee.. Haha..Gd job pp..
Then on 28..3months b4 my bday, i went for Nyjc choir concert wif Fel and HuiYun.. Haha... Mi almost late againl..Actually is late but the concert started later.. Hee..YEah.. The first half is the classic songs.. It was gre8 but sorry ah.. Qiaoyun.. i dun really understand the songs.. Cos i eh.. not very music inclined.. Haha.. YEah.. But the second part of the concert turned the mood bah.. It was simply so gre8.. it was damn nice la.. All the disney stuff.. SO cute..Too bad Yoke nv go.. If not she would have enjoyed it. haha...The second part really nice lor.. Oh yar.. eh.. sorry sab.. I couldnt recognise u lor.. Cos ur make up.. then i cannot recognise u.. Anyway.. that stupid yeesiong.. duno why u go suan mi.. Cock la.. Haha.. jitao... I haven suan u and Qiao yun u come suan mi.. Haha... Crap... Anyway..i really enjoyed the concert allot.. HOpe tpjc one would be tat gd.. BUt i dun think will be so hyper one.. I think that nelson would put all classic de.. Then sure slp lor.. But hor.. i not goin.. so why bother.. haha..Yeah..:) cos got the femine camp.. Hee..From 4-5 june.. Wa..waiting for tat bah....
Then hor..today.. i slack at home the whole day.. Really slack lor. NV study or wat.. Oh.. yar.. got go out for awhile.. meet that huiyi.. Haha.. Talked to her lor.. She's kinda sad or duno suppressing herself bah.. HEy.. get over it.. DUn waste too much brain cells lor.. Use it for studies la.. WAsting....Muz sometimes take wat vivian tell u although she also abit luan.. Haha.. But mi jx and yoke would support ur decision de.. BUt DUN CRY over her again le.. Not WORTH it.. Haha.. Guan kai wont make u cry de lor.. Boon also.. Haha..Sad tat time muz look for yoke.. u both tgt will feng feng de.. then wont sad le.. 2 happy girls.. Haha..Anyway..trust my words..Yoke will sure scold mi for buyin that stuff de.. Confirm lor.. But nvm.. i like buyin things for her..Haha..Yeah.. jus now total do all in all 13 pull up..Shiok.. feel such a sense of achievement.. HAha..:)smiles.. DUn scold mi for doin pullup cos its not the cause of my bad pain le..
Anyway.. i've finally found the girl of my life.. Willing to make her smile.. EH.. not willing is wanna see her smile.. Haha.. and wan her to be happy.. Willing to make changes for her.. Hope to be wif her for as long as time allow..Oh yar.. And i jus RMB... wat is TLC?? wat that?? I realy dunno.. HAi.. check dictionary also cannot find.. Hai..Abit sad la.. My brain cells all used up le.. HAha..:)
Anyway. the food feast.. Muz have been nice. i've got allot of food from there too.. But i didnt go there.. Hope i can go there tml.. I wanna go there for a walk.. See my boss again.. Haha.. see how the place has changed.. Hee..:) smiles... And oh yar..
Forgot.. Feline ask mi go yishun wif her.. Jitao.. Hope this time wont break my promise.. HAha.. Gre8 kindergarten frd.. Muz go xu xu jiu.. Haha.. Yeah.. I miss the 8floor auntie.. and like 10yrs nv see ur mum.. later cannot recognise her how.. Haha...I think mi mum also change allot.. Still decidin when to go back to yishun...
Anyway.. now i'm really happy.. GOt Yokeyoke.. Haha.. And also, i muz start studying le.. TMl..Tml. Haha...:)SMiles.. ANd u MAI.. This is for u:" IF U LOVE HIM, GO FOR HIM... DUN LATER U SAD AGAIN""AND RMB TO GET A DATE, A PROPER ONE"Haha..~fanghao~

THANKS

2005-05-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

THANKS EVERYONE WHO CARED..................THANKS..... I REALLY APPRECIATED THOSE............THANKS ALLOT.....

TOday Not a Gd day...

2005-05-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

Well.. Today is jus so so bah.. Got cip jus now in the aft...Welll.... I pretty much enjoyed the whole flag day thingy.. Jus that it was tiring havin to stand thru 90% of the time... But Ks and Jx kinda slacked thru it... Break and break.. But jx did much towards the end.. Suddenly got mood and enthu.. Mi was pretty enthu wif mans.. Haha.. Compete wif each other to motivate ourselves.. Well...not bad eh.. i managed to fill the tin pretty much about 80% bah.. Haha.. sense of achievement and happiness.. Tot i shld do wat i shld to deserve my 5hours of cip.. Heee.. yeah...
Ok.. other than that.. Jus now went to watch the TJC CCC drama.. It was gd on the acting part. Hee.. Yeah.. Gd... Didnt expect geraldine to be acting though.. Haha. Yeah.. She acted as mother. Haha.. Pretty gd eh. My frds all very capable..Haha.. BUt i'm like damn useless.. Canot do anything properly de.. Family.. frds.. Relationship and stuff... So sucky i feel myself to be...Argh.. Sometimes i feel tat i'm stupid and crazy.. I duno why.. But i feel that way..
Oh yes..Jus now was crappin so much wif jiening, junxiang and eggy.. Haha.. Crap sia.. Nothing beta to do.. I jus crap and crap. Crap till i was tried sia and crap till i almost died of that lameness... So lame.. Anyway.. It was much fun...They bully mi too.. HAha.. Then we went over to the market there to eat.. Then we met mo xiao lin.. Haha.. Lame.. She so antie liddat.. Haha...But she carry levis handbag to market sia.. Rich...

Hee......

2005-05-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Wa.. Today i finally studied like mad.. Pia my math till i got scolded for not eating fruits.. But i really dun wanna eat mah.. Sian... Hee.. Now i finally blog again... Wa.. now feeling damn bad cos i asked mai call mi back then when she called back i was too tired and busy..So i didnt feel the vibration.. SO sorry.. i wil call u back tml de.. Hai... Dui bu qi.. Anyway.. Mai.. Dun cry k? u used to be so strong untill u come jc... I believe..Dun cry be strong.. Its not worth to drop a tear in TPjc.. Unless its for mi. Haha.. BLeah... hee.....Well when i saw ur missed calls.. i realised that it was too late.. cos the clock ticked over 10pm.. even 1min aft 10 u will be aslp de.. I noe u too well.. So its jus my luck.. Cant catch up wif u.. Sad rite....
Anyway... recently i've been bad luck lor.. Dunno why so bad luck.. CYcle and brake can fall down.. Then cycle le.. Dunno why can bang into railing along the road.. SO suay... THen cycle halfway for no reason my tyre jus blow.. Wat the hell.. Then a bus honk mi then turn away.. Shock mi onli.. JItao.. So suay rite.. Somemore all these at nite.. near midnite.. Then i cycled to huijoo house take plaster to cover up some small cuts.. Thanks girl........ But i had more internal injuries than external bruises.. Really.. Now my knee hurts.. But i pretty much cant do anything about it lor..
Well.. its jus bad luck bah.. Haha..
Anyway, today promised yoke yee that i would study allot and do my tutorials.. I did half of wat i promised and came online le.. DUno why today so exceptionally tired lor.. Very jitao...but i had a fun day wif my bestest frd. Haha.. She is so farnie de.. Make mi laugh till stomache.. Haha.. But its quite a happy thing that i could cheer her up.. Or cure her stomache....
Wa.. Now abit tired.. Shld go rest.. jus rubbed my eyes.. Abit swollen le cos got dust...Hee...yeah i end here le...Bye

Finally i blog.. So happy Yet some sadness

2005-05-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm goin to blog le.. After so long time nv blog..I feel very bad and sad... So many things happened recently and so many many happy and sad events occurred.. Lazy to blog. Dunno where to start and wat not.....
Ok.. i shall start wif today.. Wa.. Today is YokeYee's birthday. Haha... Still dun dare to call her by her short form of YY.. Isnt that weird.. Full name beta.. Haha.. NIcer.. Well.. I dun crap le.. Today is her bDay.. Happy birthday.. See her blog.. SHe thanked so many pp.. See she so popular..Envy rite.. She's so famous cos she is frdly and cute.. Gotta admit bah.. HEe.. See she muz be very happy that i actually said that. Haha.. But she onli put such a small portion on mi.. HEe.. yeah.. SMiles..I'm joking. HEe.. Hope she really enjoyed her bday today.. I suppose this yr she had her worst bday or maybe a not so gd one bah.. But al the best to her. Hope she stil enjoyed it..Yeah.. Hope she liked my cake. Nice? and the other 3 presents.. Haha. Dun gimme so many presents on my bday ah... Hee...
Anyway. TMl i goin out so i muz finish my study... "P meeting Qiao Yun to pass her her presnt also guan kai.. Haha. My best frd.. Haha...
Hee.. Yokeyee say she very sad cos she asked mi to blog but i didnt.. But i type so slow.. Blog also will take a very long sia.. Hee.. Well. I kinda wanna talk allot about this girl.. SHe is my best frd in Tpjc.. Best yr one.. Heee.. Got 2guys wanna jio her.. So fortunate.. or unfortunate.....But i wish her luck..Anyway.. This girl has been thru the thick and thin wif mi for the past few months.. She has been a great frd.. A great girl and wat not.. SHe's the best.. She understand mi when i'm sad.. A great comfort she is to mi.. She is also very easily sad.. And i really wanna cheer her up.. Dun wanna see her sad.. Wil miss her happiness de.. Then will depress also.... So i jus wan her to stay happy..Yeah...
Well she has been forcin mi to study..That a gd thing if not i'll be playing thru my life. and its not gd de.. Thanks allot Yoke Yee..Ur the best...
Haha.. she growing fat after this Bday.. So many pp giving her cake.. haha.."p.. No worries.. i can train wif u de.. Haha..Smiles...Happy BIRTHDAY yokeyee.. All the best in the future and may ur wishes come thru..

Wa.. So Sorry..

2005-04-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

Wow.. I've never been so vulgar in my life sia.. Hee.. Kena scolded by qiao Yun.. Hee.. Now my mood is much beta but its still sad for mi.. I really dun wanna lose such a gd frd... SHe is so close to mi and she gave mi a 101% assurance that she wont dao mi again.. But eh.. she dao mi now liao..I think this time i will make her cry.. I feel so miserable.. Really.. Losing a gd frd like her is really not worth it.. My few words really sparked her anger.. Hai.. So sorry.. How u wan mi to make up? Sorry? I noe it wont help.. But i meant it as a joke..Wont say it again bah.. But really..Dun so close to pp.. Wake up k.. Ur already giving him the wrong impression and makin him do things for u unknowingly.. Hai.. I'm jus a bystander and i cant really do much.. Jus advice to u BUt not i think advice also no need to give le.. Hai.. Saded sia.. Really very very saded.. Immediately my mum come home then i goin to lose a frd... Aiya.. Dun come home la.. Go outside lor.. Make mi so miserable and troubled when u come home.. Hai...So u noe who u are.. Pls dun dao mi.. I will make it up for the gap de.. Sorry.. I dun wanna lose another frd anymore.. One is enough... Really enough.....Not a second one... SOrry... U are my closest frd and dun do this to mi like SHE did.........

SUCKS!

2005-04-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm stuck in this 3 man GAME!! Wat the hell.. How many times have i told myself not to get involved and i'm still stuck in the middle.. Losing all the frds that i've got and all the stuff that i've treasured to much.. Why the f***.. Too much into a frdship and too much cock has gotten mi all this shit and F***.. Yeah.. I'm too much of a busybody than a helper.. U, and U shld not ask mi anymore help.. I'm truely goin to study... F*** and i beta be studying.. F***.. JiB**... The last time i got involved i lost a frd.. THis time i duno if the same is goin to happen.. I may be easily paranoid over this stuff and it jus suck anyway.. In the midst of all this F*** at home and all this CRAP in sch.. WAT THE F***... Mus i go on like that forever?? F*** la.. I think most prob tml i will be sick.. Ha.. Can ANYONE and i mean ANYONE jus dun gimme all this F***.. A frd jus a GD FRD.. A FAMILY JUS A FAMILY.. A SCH.. JUS A SCH... Dun TrY To TeLL mi that the sch will try to help mi... All ThIs Fu** that the sch does for mi is enough i tell u u blood RANUALT...HOD of GP big la.. SEE u so many times U F***ing big la.. I'm Not GOin to F***ing CONFIND myself into u.. Not EVEN THAT BITCH.....WAteva u call her..AND i dun MEAN JOa! If ShE Is ReaDiN ThiS FoR dUnO wAt F*** reAsOn.. Wa.. Now I LOoK lIkE A FreAk! YeaH! I'm One Ever since i scolded her a bitch.. Well intentionally...or maybe unintentionally but wats done is done.. That frd lost was a huge blow to mi.. Tell u this.. OnE MoRe FrD LosT And I'Ll Fu** CaRE the WHoLe Fu**InG WorLd.....
Hai... LorD As I PRAy... PlS GiMmE StrEnGhT To CoNTiNuE wIf My LiFe AnD ThIs Fu** Up WoRlD.. LiVe ThRu The MIsErY oF mY FaMiLY AnD GraNt Mi ThE PoWeR To SaLvAge A FrDShIp...

BoO!! WaT A DaY!

2005-04-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

Haha..Wa.. Sound like Mai sia.. haha..Ok i was told to update my blog by Qiao Yun cos she says i nv update. I very ting hua Rite??Haha..DUh!! Yeah... Now i'm typing wif my scalded fingers.. haha.. Yeah... THat Cooked thumb.. Haha.. Jus now unlucky then burn it lor.. Stupid leh.. TOday so much injuries.. Fell from the fence while tryin to climb into the Sch to train Bball wif hong Kai. Haha.. THen played onli awhile then Come out le.For that while i injured and bleeded.. Hai.. Stupid rite.. Anyway.. i not really in the mood to Blog now.. Lazy.. SHall blog tml..---> To qiao Yun.. Haha...:)

Mum LeFt HoME....

2005-04-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

JitAo.. My MuM dunno go where le.. SaDed.. Family so crappy sia.. Hai.. She says she isnt coming back for the time being.. I think will be a long time bah.. Hai.. My family is like that.. WHy leh... Sian.. Now got no one to cook at home.. to Iron my shirt and stuff.. When is she coming back.. Ha... This family sucks..

ShITtY DaY!!

2005-04-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

Wa.. Damn!!! Today wasnt a gd day sia.. Well.. Early in the morning damn unlucky.. Haha..This one onli mi and Yoke Yee noe why.. But also lucky to a certain extent rite.. Hee.. Wat to say leh.. Her Luckiness today helped mi to overpower my unluckiness today.. Ha.. Everything was pretty sucky leh...
Today almost all my gd frds were in a bad mood.. Eh.. first start.. Hong kai not in gd mood..Mai say he is always tryin to feign some happiness... Then there came Hui qing.. She hasn't been in the mood since ystd cos of alvin bah.. NOthing can take away her happiness except him.. Hee.. Aiya.. this couple very en ai de.. But sometimes will jus ou qi.. Thats all.. I noe that everything will work out well for them de.. Unlike mi... Hee.. Yeah! Then came eh..Jun Xiang.. These few days he hasnt been in gd mood bah.. I dun really noe why but there might be those few reason bah.. Haha.. Then got eh...Xiang Min.. SHe cried (cos too angry or too sad) over her locker...That locker was hers then it got transferred to another one.. She very pis and wan it back... Hey.. Relac Xiangmin.. ITs jus a locker.. Dun strain a tch and student relationship.. U still got 8months to go lor.. K...This is Tpjc.. DUn expect too much from it..THe more u expect.. THe more u will disappoint.. Ha..Thats the most realistic thing now..
Well.. mi very weird de.. I will be very easily affected by other pp's bad mood de.. Haha.. But its mi.. Then i will crack my head and try to solve it.. Hee..Thats mi. Haha.. Then the whole day i was not in the mood too.. ha.. BUt eh..I duno why i bad mood.. BUt its not becos of them Bah.. Well.. I was really in a bad mood after i got my PW results.. Crap la.. Hai.. So Sad..
I got a Band 2 for my PW lor.. Sucky la.. Jitao.. Such a crappy results.. It stands 10% of the total lor.. And i can now got 7.5% cos band 2 mah.. I tell u why band 2 sucks...Cos 500 student in our sch got That grade.. That shows how sucky it is la.. Like shit.. Hai... THen i was so sad.. Jus wanted to be alone.. Then didnt wanna go home.. THen hor..Dunno why i didnt wanna go see yoke yee to pass her the stuff.. Haha.. I think i'm mad.. I very JITAO lor.. Haha.. If i noe wat that means.. Haha.. But as i sat and watched my frd practise Wu SHu, and msged Yoke Yee.. I felt so much beta.. I hope mai didnt think i was angry wif her cos i wasnt lor.. I was in my own world..Hai...At least Yoke yee said something motivating.. Haha.. EH... Wu Shu really very nice lor. Haha..JItao.. I really very stupid.. SHld have gone to give her the stuff.. Anyway.. I bought another one for mai le.. Haha.. Yeah.. One for Qiao Yun.. Cos got the cloud word on top it. Haha.. Nice leh...Hope they like it.. Wa.. I anyhow waste money to buy stuff for pp again.. But that's mi.. ! Again.. Finding excuse to drain my own allowance... HEe.. Ok..
Now i'm feeling beta le.. Haha.. So much beta liao.. haha..:) SMiles......Ok.. i think i shld stop here le.. IF not Jun Xiang wait too long he later bu Shuang... Haha..

Yeah!! Today GooD DaY!

2005-04-14T11:59:00.000+08:00

Well, I always like to start wif well. Haha.. Lame.. Hee.. Ok... Eh.. Today is a gd day.. Beta than the past la.. How shld i put it.. Today, TPjc won Ajc.. 5-3... My classmate Hafiz and Elfi scored 1goal each.. Pro eh.. 04S24 de lor.. Well, not bad eh.. At least tpjc Soccer team is gd. Haha.. Muz put more faith in them. Yeah.. Well.. At least something i can be proud of.. Haha.. I managed to watch the first 2 goals by the Ajc and Tpjc then got dragged to play bball willingly.. Haha..Then i miss the Gd parts of soccer.. Well I'm not so into soccer anyway.. Ha.. Muz rmb that i met my frd Amanda Yue.. Hee.. Found it in a very awkward position to talk to her.. Oh yar.. Talkin about frd.. THat Yoke Yee dun wan her life sia.. Tjc lost today to Yjc 2-1. THen she went to shout to her Tjc frd.. "Hey.. TJC lost again AHHHH!!!".. JITAO.. ALl the Tjc pp look at her.. Then she was beside mi somemore.. Lucky nv kena wacked.. haha.. Aiyo.. Pls ah... I dun wanna get killed so early.. Anyway...the match was great.. But after that, i played bball till very late..Hong kai came over to play wif mi, and frds.. Haha.. Jus play lor.. Well..Actually i sense somethings.. But i didnt wanna react onli.. So play play till 7 plus then everyone chiong home.. Haha... My frds all very cute.. Anyhow play.. Lose also wont frown de. Haha.. YEah.. Thats wat is gd about 04S24.. haha.. BUt we still do well in studies..
Well everything went on smoothly except for the fact that i had to go see the damn HOD.. Wa piang.. So sian lor.. Sian like hell.. Listen to him talk.. Hai.. He was trying to dig out wat my family problems were but i wont wanna confind myself to any other tpjc teacher le.. So many pp noe and i wanna stop spreading my family stuff.. If not that girl would come scold mi.. DUn wanna say who la..He talk so much that i felt like puking.. So stupid lor.. I listen to him talk for almost an hour. Haha.. Then i took up that few (allot of)mins to buy drinks, talk to Yoke Yee.. Talk to drink stall auntie.. Haha.. SO crap lor.. Then about over a period late then i got into fmaths class.. Well its the same even if i go on time cos i will end up slping or not doin any work in class jus like any ordinary day.. Haha.. That tch crazy de.. Sometimes go so fast, sometimes go so slow.. Dunno how to pei her him lor.. Hee..
Then today i maciam very tired.. haha.. So slack but i still tired lor.. HEe... Jitao..Cos the nite before i slp so late.. DUno why.. Forgot the reason le.. HEe...Yeah!Anyway, I think i shld stop here for today bah....If not tml i cannot wake up again then will die very badly.. HEe..

WeD..Wat a Day!

2005-04-13T22:42:00.001+08:00

Well..Wat i wanted to say today is actually very very simple. One thing.. Joa..(my Ex)...Haha... Well today i saw her once..Lucky onli once.. To date i have no more love of any sort le.. but maybe a little unhappiness when i see her wif that other guy. Dun wish to say the name. Haha.. Dun like that guy anyway.. haha..Well, now that Joa hates mi, i feel beta living of my life and feel more concentrated on my studies. Haha. My analysis---> I actually got wat i wanted. I merely wanted her to get out of my heart and out of my life. At first i couldnt do it but now i'm already over and done wif it le.. Happy sia.. At least now i noe that she hates mi, she no longer come to look for mi.. So at least i dun have frds askin mi why we are so weird.. Break le still so close. Hee.. Ur disappearance and hatred made mi forgot about the love that existed in mi. I lost them all. Well thats a gd thing cos i can study in peace now.. Haha..
Anyway, now i've got this new gd frd Yoke Yee who comforted mi when i was down.. Haha.. Well it doesnt matter to mi if Joa doesnt like her liao.. Haha.. U bu shuang mi gd frd wif Yoke Yee is ur problem liao Haha.. Yoke Yee is a great girl.. SHe got so many pp who is queueing up waiting for her.. Haha.. So xin fu rite.. I got no one on my queue.. Haha.. So poor things.. But for mi i dun expect much la.. Haha.. Wanna stay single before my A's.. But the last time i made this promise i got into one lor.. Saded.. This time i will keep it.. Yeah.. Must study le.. Haha..
Hey girl.. Must stay happy k. Treasure the pp in front of u.. Haha.. Thats mi!! Dun bu shaung mi then wanna break a frdship.. Haha.. Jokin k.. But that time u really scare mi.. Almost died..
Oh yeah.. Talking about today.. I went for all my lessons.. First time in dunno how many times leh.. And also..I've been doin up my hw nowadays to make them neat and tidy.. Haha.. Must really study liao.. hee... Yeah..A's ah A's ah.. Haha...Well.. today as usual, the 2 fmaths peroid was hell of a bore.. Almost slp.. Well still didnt manage to catch up but.. nvm., I'll still try... Nothing is too late.. Hee... The most retain lor.. haha.. Yeah..
Today maths society is fun too.. Except for the last part talkin to mr Chow.. Haha.. Today got orientation.. YEah.. SO happening.. Lucky today i'm not the person to be sabotage.. Haha.. Today is bushan.. He was to do a banana dance and also spell out Tampines JC using his butt.. Haha.. YEah.... How nice..Well.. Lucky Joa didnt come.. IF not i duno how to react.. But i duno if i still wish to see her.. Maybe not.. And it will never happen again.. haha.. I've managed to forget.,. Haha.. YEah.. Ok.. Off to do my gp research le...

Wa... So ShaCk!

2005-04-13T03:06:00.000+08:00

Wa.. Today damn shack sia... Didnt do many things but i manage to do make myself so tired. Haha.. Today sch ended at 3pm liddat.. then Jun Xiang and Kah Seng came over to my house to play their fav dota. Haha.. Pretty fun game that i'm bad in.. Well, haven been good in any games lately... Haha... Muz study lor.. Play Play.... Yeah.. Anyway, they played dota then i asked yoke yee to come along.. And we ended up playing mahjong.. Tada.... Mahjong again.. Well.. pretty fun and slow game i shld say.. We decided to gamble bah.. $5 dollars of cash onli.. Hee..Well..Today damn lucky le lor.. Sit opposite that Yoke Yee still can win.. Haha.. When we sit opposite each other we never wont a game except for today.. Haha... Isnt that an irony?? Ha.. But i really enjoyed the game.. Haha.. We played from 4 to bout 7 pm.. Long time eh.. Yeah..Thats how we should kill time.. But the onli person around who has the most time is JX.. Haha.. He finish all his tutorials le.. U say he pro or not.. THen we have got this Yoke Yee who is forever doin Geo.. Haha..Really cant stand reading all the stuff from her Geo notes.. I can die.. Thats why i pei fu her.. Haha... Wa.. Today i really got allot to say lor.. Muz type all out man!
Well.. Early in the morning Mai msg mi and woke mi up in the morning.. HAiyo.. This cute best frd of mY in TPjc... She got into a fight and got her lips all swell up..HAha... So cute and violent rite.. Haha.. Girls = Cat fight.. She got punch but some sec sch girl who feels that mai was staring at her.. Haha.. Cute eh.. Hee..But Mai wouldnt lose out to other girl.. She punched the girl and broke her nose.. Lucky sia..Lucky no police case..Hee... Heng... U girl take care... See la.. For no reason got into a fight then cannot watch SAMARA wif u then later u goin to blame mi and might end up watching wif ur *-*... hahaha.. Ex crush.. Haha... Cute la u... The whole morning i was looking for the cream to help her stop the swell.. Haha.. Cannot find.. Cos I/ Everyone never heard of something like that before.. Haha.. First time i hear of the lips swelling.. Haha.. Cute...
Then i find and find till i late to meet yoke yee.. Felt so bad sia.. This is not the first time that i was late.. Kindda ungentleman lor.. Haha... But i duno why always late....Not like i wan la..But.. Cant help it.. Unforseen circumstances... Hee.. Hope u dun mind k.. Tml or some other day i will go down early to wait.. So that i wont be late.. Haha.. OK.. Promise..
Anyway.. today in sch was rather fine..Nothing particular happened.. Life is jus as bored but now i've got this new gd frd Yoke yee..HAha.. She is cute la.. Haha.. Laugh and laugh.. Always disturb mi and let mi disturb.. Haha.. SHe is one gd person to confind myself to. Haha..Jitao...But she can really become nasty at times.. Haha... When she dao mi.. i was really afraid of losin this frd.. Maciam already lost 2 frds in tpjc.. Allot liao lor.. Haha...Anyway,, got this one thing to say..Hee.. cos got some of my frd wu hui say that i got uterior motive when i keep giving pp presents..Say that i wanna jio the person whom i buy so many presents for.. But one thing ah.. I like to give pp things.. So i have no other intentions when i buy stuff for u and other girls.. Haha.. And i buy for guys too.. Haha..Aint i gd?? Haha.. Bhb Sia....."P
Well, at nite i went over to the hawker center at opp my house there to eat.. Haha.. Ate $20 bucks worth of food.. Hee.. not Bad eh.. Haha.. The food was nice..Well.. i was wif this gd frd Jun Xiang who ate wif mi.. Haha.. He is one gd frd..Haha.. Can trust de man...!!! We ate till so full then he insisted that mi and felicia gotta go his house to do the calling of the JC1 members for the maths society meeting tml. Haha.. Yeah!! I reluctantly agreed. Haha..."p We went over, called and left in about 1hours time bah.. Haha.. NOThing to do and its not so gd for a girl to stay out so late. Haha..Maciam, as usual, i sent fel to her block before i left. Haha..Nothing great actually.."P..Then now. i've wasted about 2 hours trying to get this blog into place so that i can have it posted up.. I mean i repaired the site for bout 2 hours.. SO Shack!!.. Haha.. But i think its worth it de.. Haha...."P
Ok.. i think i should end here le..HAha.. Pray hard that tml will be a gd and beta day.. Hope i see the pp i wanna see and dun see those that i hate.. Haha.. And yeah.. PP, u noe who i'm talking about. Haha... SmileS ("p)

New Blog..

2005-04-12T13:54:00.000+08:00

Haha.. 11/4.. Today i'm goin to start my new blog.. Jus a simple and easy one.. Yeah... Dun talk about the last one bah.. That one have allot of bad memories.. So sian.. From today i'm goin to live life to the fullest from this very minute. Haha.. How does that sound?? Gd eh? Haha.. Yeah...
In life there are ups and there downs.. For mi, for the recent months, there has been so much down, maybe double, maybe triple of my ups. But there were at least some ups that made mi happy for that part of my time.
Ok... Well thats maybe part of my past few months.. Maybe not so gd but i believe it is goin to improve and be beta in the near future.. Haha.... All the best to mi sia....