Saturday, February 25, 2006
25/6----Tots and feelings
25/6 1.20am
Saturday now already. jus 3hours plus from my bookout day. and 8hours ago i was preparing for my route march in full battle order. I'm kinda writing this blog but its kinda dead again. Aint got any mood to revive it. JUs tat i got some tots and feelings tat i decided not to bottle them up. Although no one is goin to read this fuck-uped thing but nvm bah.. i jus write some shit tat probably no one will write thru...
Today is my bookout day. BUt at every bookout i will have the same damn feeling. It jus suck u see. I duno why but i jus cant be happy whenever i book out. Really. Last fri was book out too. It was after a 7 days long shack field camp. Tat last week was the most happy booking out i would say. Most happy liao. I went watch movie with my frd. First time though.. BUt it did bring up my spirit a little. went to watch the 'i not stupid too'. Quite a gd show i would say. Fel cried though. Then after the show went to eat lunch. Feeling super guilty lor.. Really super guilty about the lunch.
Anyway tat isnt the tot and my feeling in my brain. Somehow, i do feel happy for yoke and her bf now. Seeing them happy tgt and able to talk to her as frd now.
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Recently this stupid feeling is coming back to mi. I duno how to put it thru. Haiz. it kinds of saddens mi allot. Called yoke the nite before. I was so overjoyed after a successful act out as a narrator of my act. My team of actors didnt fail mi and neither did i fail them, the co-ordination was done really well and my effort wasnt wasted. I feel so super happy when all the sir were happy with the performance and also they were very please wif the act. I called a few pp.. So much of those i wanted to share tat happiness with.. Called and called, but the onli person who picked up my call and shared tat happiness wif mi was yy.. kinda felt happy tat there was at least one person who picked up my phone call. Well, she kinda notice wat was happening around mi in one way or another..Haiz..Like her. I also duno how to explain it...Feel stupid...Haiz.. Nvm.. i'm at a lost of wat to say bah.. It sucks..
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This week a's coming out. But the worrying thing to mi isnt about the results at all...Hai.. how how... Teach mi how.....
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I'm probably the most useless people and the last of the last person tat anyone would put in their mind. Yup..
Probably i might end up becoming like yong meng---Hate men...
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Sometimes at a point when one very much wana make the first move to resolve a crisis but he/she is often not given tat opportunity and a crisis becomes a disaster tat can nv be resolve..
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25/2-1.47am
DuMmY87's memories written1:30 AM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Second bookout from army HIGH FEVER
Long time since i blogged my bro said to mi. QUite some time i think..the last post was so long ago.
booked in on the 7 of jan i think. cant really rmb. Didnt feel quite happy booking in at all.. Really.. 1 few days sucked cos i counldnt really slp. But after 2-3 nites i adapted to the place.Made many frds.. which include my buddy chang wen. My gd joke mate yong meng, alloysus section ic. pohseng(big sized cute guy jioing girl)Yong quan with nice 6pacs and vjc swimming chong wei.and leonard nicholas and our SM gordon. I booked out 2days shortly after the first book in. tat 1 day of public holiday seem so super short. Really short. HAven enjoyed the outside world enough. Then book in le.. Shortly after book in. I recieve my rifle. Not very nice thing i shld say.. LIke toy like tat.. Heavy bah.. COnsider walking 24k wif it. Then i recieved my first set of army uniform and the first set of meals.. Kinda like those meals..
Life in the army is like life in vs. Full of ups and downs and bonds ever stronger.Jus tat we have to stay there for 5 days and not go home. THink about it.. It isnt really tat bad.Got provide sufficient-- Too much-- food..tat we will confirm get damn full after each meal. have nite snack and stuff..and got allowance some more..
HOwever one thing tat i didnt really enjoy is the rapid spread of the diseases.. Really soo super fast. 12 days into camp.. My section( 12 ) of us.. ALready there is 6 who are sick. Really.. Fever and stuff.. well.. i'm the 6th one. THen i booked out on status. Means something like Mc..not bad la.. manage to tahan my fever for so long. Yeah. from 5.30 amd to 1.00pm. then i report sick..I hit a record highest temp of 39degrees.. Haha.. Abit crazy.. Then i went to see medic.. Feelin really horrible and sick.. Really sick.. Damn...
Fever suck.. The medical centre jus make it worse. Ha.. never will i get sick again. Never.. I goin to book in tml friday at 9.30 then book out at sat again at noon or so.. quite lame rite.WEll.. its kinda alrite for mi bah.. Maybe coming home or not doesnt really matter to mi.. life inside is jus as tough as life outside..
wow i'm kinda really sick now.. Really i mean.. Later goin to rest le.. maybe go talk on the phone too.. lol.. but hor.. now my timing has been switched to 2230hr to .0530 slpin time... lol .. wat am i goin to do when i wake at like 5am tml.. tat would be so stupid though..
0.o.. my tag box duno wat happen.. got deleted so i decided to put up a new one.. but i kinda doubt there would be anything posted.. Yeah..Now in army.. i kinda miss those times in tpjc..well well.. i prefer to study though.. But the tough part is onli the 3 months.. later then song already..
today when i booked out. i met my fs. tat fitnes instructor.. tough trainig but it is good for us. when i boarded the bus.. i saw this girl tat looked really like u..smiled and frown to myself..but i didnt noe wat tat meant to myself..
1 day a soldier.. always a soldier...
ha.. tml booking in at 9.30pm.. shld i popby novena sq to hit on tat crazy girl?haha..can consider
Occasionally i would still miss those times where we confind to each other where we joked almost everyday.
DuMmY87's memories written7:20 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
Back from army
Haiz.. back from army, 2 days in army though. NOthing much to say about army. jus tat army probably sucks. Sian.. Really nothing to do. Haven got much physical training and i kept eating and eating.Well i hope tat the training will start soon. Getting my rifle on the 14 jan lor.. Tat's wat they say la.. Haiz.. Wats so fun about getting it anyway.. Jus a rifle. Something tat jus make my life more difficult. Haiz..Anyway.. Muz try to keep a positive attitude towards this. Haiz. Hope to be able to become the top 10% bah. Then can become officer.. Hope.. Jus a hope..
Haiz.. Stupid blog.. Duno why i am blogging again..No ones read this damn blog anyways..Ah.. fark.. jus blog...
There is this 1 person tat i miss the most.. Mai, i would say..Wondering wat is happening to her.. Haiz.. Tat Best frd....
Bookin out on a hari raya haji.. Simply isnt tat amazing anyway.. Sucks bah.. Kinda bo liao...
Will i get a one word reply?
DuMmY87's memories written10:17 PM
